relationships
I have been thinking alot about the quality of the relationships I have in my life. There are some friends what I think Alison would tell me it would be healthier to just cut out of my life and I admit I am trying hard to stop putting effort in to relationships that seem totally one sided. I am just tired of having "friends" who more often than not leave me feeling rather crappy. Yeah I am thinking about one person in particular, probably alot of you know who i am talking about. I am not sure why I stay friend with this person. I am 100% sure I am better friend to them then that are to me. Most of my friends understand me, my humor and my sensitivity. I am not sure if this person doesn't understand or just doesn't care or something inbetween.
Some of this makes me think back to a question I have often pondered about life and friends and "soscial status". Is it impossible for me to be friend who didnt have a similar up bringing to me? I like to think I can be friend with everyone and I would say I accept everyone no matter what. OK, maybe not no matter what, if you can't hold a conversation without using the word like ever 4 words then I will not be able to be friends with you, but other then that I like to think I am a rather amicable person. So maybe I can't 100% relate to someone's struggles because I am lucky. I don't think that means I will never get it. I try and help and I feel like I am either taken advantage of or just seen as being a rich brat who pities people. I hate it.
Maybe I should just tell the person they can't be in my life, I am not sure, a lot of people wonder why I have anything to do with him. I really wonder what he would think if he knew what people said about him when he wasn't there. Maybe it would be good for me to know that he comes off REALLY badly to 9 out of 10 people.
Maybe I am just stronger now and don't feel like I have to accept anyone who shows me "attention" I can pick and choose a little, maybe I have out grown some people. I am not sure.
Some of this makes me think back to a question I have often pondered about life and friends and "soscial status". Is it impossible for me to be friend who didnt have a similar up bringing to me? I like to think I can be friend with everyone and I would say I accept everyone no matter what. OK, maybe not no matter what, if you can't hold a conversation without using the word like ever 4 words then I will not be able to be friends with you, but other then that I like to think I am a rather amicable person. So maybe I can't 100% relate to someone's struggles because I am lucky. I don't think that means I will never get it. I try and help and I feel like I am either taken advantage of or just seen as being a rich brat who pities people. I hate it.
Maybe I should just tell the person they can't be in my life, I am not sure, a lot of people wonder why I have anything to do with him. I really wonder what he would think if he knew what people said about him when he wasn't there. Maybe it would be good for me to know that he comes off REALLY badly to 9 out of 10 people.
Maybe I am just stronger now and don't feel like I have to accept anyone who shows me "attention" I can pick and choose a little, maybe I have out grown some people. I am not sure.