school and other things
First 2 days of school and I already had a mini freak out because one of my classes is clearly two fucking easy. I know I know this sounds like a good thing and now that I am a little more stable maybe it is but at the time that I WAS freaking out it wasn’t about the class it was about the idea that I can’t fit in anywhere no matter what I do and even something that should work for me can’t. I think in reality my nerves and by definition the barrier between my wise and emotion minds (if you don’t get that you are not alone, it is a DBT thing, I am happy to explain) were paper thin due to all the events of late and it is not hard for me to jump over the edge.
OK So first day(s) of school review: Theology-I am going to enjoy this class but it is A LOT of reading and I do worry about keeping my head above water. I am hoping it will all be OK, we will see. I am learning a lot about Judaism and have a lot of fun projects to take care of. Will keep you posted (Did you know Barbie was invented by a Jewish woman and is modeled after a German sex doll called Lilie? The same woman also made some kind of synthetic breast; I believe a bra insert, but basically made 2 fortunes off plastic boobs).
Psychology: My teacher is really funny, I think I may be the only senior in the class but I am OK with that. Not as much reading as I thought and I have to go take part in a lot of “Experiments”. DUN DUN DAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dramatic Music!!!!!! More on that later.
French: Cake walk. The End.
Company: I am going to Jail. Seriously, once a week I am going to the San Bruno Jail and working with men in Jail. This is a little odd for me and a little unnerving. I hope it turns out OK, I am sure it will, I just…well…I don’t want to talk about it here.
Anyway, I have 2 pretty good Auditions today for 2 shows, was not accepted in to “Waiting for Godot”, and have “Refer Madness” on Labor Day. I hope I am not put in a situation where I have to chose between “Learned Ladies” and “Refer Madness” because that would be REALLY hard to do. I am pretty sure “Refer Madness” is in the spring so I like to think I could so both but maybe not. We will see. I am trying to mentally prep myself in case I get reject from EVERYTHING since I am not in the mood to get mopey.
OK, it is 3 AM, Good night…
in other news i need a hair cut
OK So first day(s) of school review: Theology-I am going to enjoy this class but it is A LOT of reading and I do worry about keeping my head above water. I am hoping it will all be OK, we will see. I am learning a lot about Judaism and have a lot of fun projects to take care of. Will keep you posted (Did you know Barbie was invented by a Jewish woman and is modeled after a German sex doll called Lilie? The same woman also made some kind of synthetic breast; I believe a bra insert, but basically made 2 fortunes off plastic boobs).
Psychology: My teacher is really funny, I think I may be the only senior in the class but I am OK with that. Not as much reading as I thought and I have to go take part in a lot of “Experiments”. DUN DUN DAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dramatic Music!!!!!! More on that later.
French: Cake walk. The End.
Company: I am going to Jail. Seriously, once a week I am going to the San Bruno Jail and working with men in Jail. This is a little odd for me and a little unnerving. I hope it turns out OK, I am sure it will, I just…well…I don’t want to talk about it here.
Anyway, I have 2 pretty good Auditions today for 2 shows, was not accepted in to “Waiting for Godot”, and have “Refer Madness” on Labor Day. I hope I am not put in a situation where I have to chose between “Learned Ladies” and “Refer Madness” because that would be REALLY hard to do. I am pretty sure “Refer Madness” is in the spring so I like to think I could so both but maybe not. We will see. I am trying to mentally prep myself in case I get reject from EVERYTHING since I am not in the mood to get mopey.
OK, it is 3 AM, Good night…
in other news i need a hair cut