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I have been thinking about a lot of things lately, a lot brought on my therapy. First off, I realized why I am SO desperate for a boyfriend/relationship right now: In HS and even Junior HS I didn’t have a lot of friend so my only social outings were with a BF. When I had a BF I went to art museums, movies, parks, food, everything. If I didn’t have BF I had no life and sat around a watched a lot of TV. I am trying to get out more and spend time with people but it is so hard since so many of the people I want to spend time with life over in the East Bay. Someone posts on LJ that they are going to X even at Y time in Z place and while for most people that is easy for me it mean bart schedules, bus schedules or trying to get home, get the car, mapquest my way over there….you get the point….it just makes things a little more difficult, I mean to quote a conversation with
: I'm going to grab her and take her home with me tonight
spurious_logic: bundle her up on the futon, feed her and watch the rest of Heroes season 1 with her
wolfe_girl87 : i am jealous
wolfe_girl87 : for serious
wolfe_girl87 : no one would do that for me if i was sick
spurious_logic : mmmm? I don't know about that
spurious_logic : the only problem is you live on the wrong side of the bay
It is a two way thing, it is harder for them to see me and me to see them. I am not addressing anyone person, or even a group, I am just pointing something out, something that I feel. I think this is a major reason I am obsessing over the Boy in Tights. He lives IN SF, like half a mile from me at the most so that mean more then kissing and loving but actually going out, or just hanging out with some one I like and care about.
The other thing I realized recently was how much I am influenced by other people, I mean how many thing I do just because my friend do them. This Worries me a lot.
OK, plan for tonight:
Going home, change my clothes and put my shoes in a bag, get to BART, take it over to meet Amy Rene and going to my first FNB. YIPES!!!!!
Tomorrow:
Photoshoot with sweetdarkness87 at the headlands.
gym
Gaskells
Sunday:
I am not sure about Sunday yet….