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Blah...vivid dreams. Had one where I was back in Ireland with friends and I was basically the tour guide. I really miss that place.
I can't remember the others, mostly nightmares, but I woke up from each so shaken/energized that I couldn't get to sleep right away. You'd think I'd sleep better, knowing I have a job starting soon and all.
Part of it is I'm nervous for my sister. This Tuesday is the 20th and unfortunately this year, the anniversary of the shooting falls on the same day of the week as when it happened. I've talked with my sister and she's seriously thinking about missing some of her tests (and a final, if I heard her right), due to them falling on Tuesday. I don't want to tell her to get over it, but at the same time, she really needs to prove to herself that she can go on living a regular life and not have things like this hold her back. She's a strong person, I know she is. You have to be in my family. With both parents drunk most of the time, she and I learned at a young age to fend for ourselves. She needs to not let this hold her back. Yet, there's only so much I can do for her while she's in a different state. She doesn't understand why her teachers won't be empathetic to the situation and let her test on a different day. I told her it would be as if she and I gave Dad permission to drink himself into a stupor, just because he was in Vietnam.
Speaking of, I watched "Freddy vs. Jason" a few nights ago. They mentioned Columbine as a verb. We have apparently reached pop-culture lingo status. Oh joy.
...If I wasn't so into myself as a Senior, and think I had no friends who hadn't graduated already...I could have talked some sense into Dylan while we were running sound together...I know I could have. Fuck.
I can't remember the others, mostly nightmares, but I woke up from each so shaken/energized that I couldn't get to sleep right away. You'd think I'd sleep better, knowing I have a job starting soon and all.
Part of it is I'm nervous for my sister. This Tuesday is the 20th and unfortunately this year, the anniversary of the shooting falls on the same day of the week as when it happened. I've talked with my sister and she's seriously thinking about missing some of her tests (and a final, if I heard her right), due to them falling on Tuesday. I don't want to tell her to get over it, but at the same time, she really needs to prove to herself that she can go on living a regular life and not have things like this hold her back. She's a strong person, I know she is. You have to be in my family. With both parents drunk most of the time, she and I learned at a young age to fend for ourselves. She needs to not let this hold her back. Yet, there's only so much I can do for her while she's in a different state. She doesn't understand why her teachers won't be empathetic to the situation and let her test on a different day. I told her it would be as if she and I gave Dad permission to drink himself into a stupor, just because he was in Vietnam.
Speaking of, I watched "Freddy vs. Jason" a few nights ago. They mentioned Columbine as a verb. We have apparently reached pop-culture lingo status. Oh joy.
...If I wasn't so into myself as a Senior, and think I had no friends who hadn't graduated already...I could have talked some sense into Dylan while we were running sound together...I know I could have. Fuck.