somehow im always the bad guy
the track clinic at U of M was awesome! we learned some seriously incredible streches that really show you that the way you've been streching "isnt the worst way in the world" as james henry said, but it sucks. you really learn how unflexible you are when you do these active streches, as opposed to the standard static streching. on saturday we did hurdles alll day. we learned a whole bunch of useful drills and talked about form. it seemed so simple sometimes, but sooo helpful! when we hurdled at the end, i was impressed. i felt a lot better about my form and (given that the hurdles were a little closer than normal) i 3-strided them! it's gonna be this year, im gonna do it and im gonna kick ass at conferences and regionals. im really hoping to get to states too. everyone better come watch me if i do! so then sunday we did sprint technique and blocks. mostly blocks because we figured it would help us out more. it did too. our whole stand up thing (turns out it's called a 3-point start) is completely ridiculous and we should have never done it to begin with. but we learned some awesome ways to practice starting and drills to do to help it. then we raced a little out of the blocks, and it felt really comfortable. and coach fred kept saying you should feel comfortable in the set position, and whether i did or not before, i did then. it was so great. i just cannot wait until our season this year. we have such a great shot at winning conferences. we're 3 deep in the hurdles, our 4X8 and 4X4 are completely stacked, we have allie for the vault, and anna for throwing with maggie close behind (and who knows what julie can do), oue mile and 2-mile should be up there, especially considering that stevenson and churchill lost some good athletes.... kaner was telling us all about this, and she's totally stoked. i think we can do it, i really do.
so then i came home and discovered that my computer had crashed while i was gone, and the hard drive was completely blank... no 500 and some songs on limewire, no homework i had saved, none of my songs or stories or cool things i'd saved in the word program were still there... i was so upset. it's one thing when im there and see it happen and KNOW it couldnt have been avoidable, but just hearing that "oh the hard drive crashed while randy was working on it" somehow just makes me more pissed off. at least i could have saved the new stuff to the disks i have if i knew he was going to be playing with it. i dont blame him at all, my computer is just sucky, but im so upset that everything i had is GONE. so my stories that i had been adding to and adding to, i probably have the first 3-5 pages on a disk somewhere, but i added a LOT to some of them... a couple pages at least. this pisses me off so much.
so my day sucked as soon as i got home.
i took a shower, blared korn's "take a look in the mirror" and basically took my frustration out through my lungs.
then it turns out that my night was soon to suck even more.
im not going into details, i dont need to post every little thing that happens, but mostly i dont need to bring up something that i think has already been solved and the hatchet "buried." but a certain someone forgot some certain plans last night... and it really upsetted me. worse than the computer crashing (oh yeah so AIM was deleted, and all my info and away messages with song lyrics or copy and pastes of what people said is gone too. this inculded the most incredibely sweet thing jerald had ever said to me online about loving me... GONE). so we probably racked up about 2-3 hours on the phone last night, between about 9 and midnight. it was terrible. and shit got turned around on me like always, but what can i do. i think we're both very contentious and possessive and stubborn... so that makes for some really explosive conversations sometimes. last night was one of them. but like i said, i think it's okay now. i have to work from 4-10 today, and i guess my grandma and great uncle are coming over... but i think im going to have to set some time aside to be with jerald.
but i have to go clean before my dad throws a fit more than he already is.
so then i came home and discovered that my computer had crashed while i was gone, and the hard drive was completely blank... no 500 and some songs on limewire, no homework i had saved, none of my songs or stories or cool things i'd saved in the word program were still there... i was so upset. it's one thing when im there and see it happen and KNOW it couldnt have been avoidable, but just hearing that "oh the hard drive crashed while randy was working on it" somehow just makes me more pissed off. at least i could have saved the new stuff to the disks i have if i knew he was going to be playing with it. i dont blame him at all, my computer is just sucky, but im so upset that everything i had is GONE. so my stories that i had been adding to and adding to, i probably have the first 3-5 pages on a disk somewhere, but i added a LOT to some of them... a couple pages at least. this pisses me off so much.
so my day sucked as soon as i got home.
i took a shower, blared korn's "take a look in the mirror" and basically took my frustration out through my lungs.
then it turns out that my night was soon to suck even more.
im not going into details, i dont need to post every little thing that happens, but mostly i dont need to bring up something that i think has already been solved and the hatchet "buried." but a certain someone forgot some certain plans last night... and it really upsetted me. worse than the computer crashing (oh yeah so AIM was deleted, and all my info and away messages with song lyrics or copy and pastes of what people said is gone too. this inculded the most incredibely sweet thing jerald had ever said to me online about loving me... GONE). so we probably racked up about 2-3 hours on the phone last night, between about 9 and midnight. it was terrible. and shit got turned around on me like always, but what can i do. i think we're both very contentious and possessive and stubborn... so that makes for some really explosive conversations sometimes. last night was one of them. but like i said, i think it's okay now. i have to work from 4-10 today, and i guess my grandma and great uncle are coming over... but i think im going to have to set some time aside to be with jerald.
but i have to go clean before my dad throws a fit more than he already is.