who knows
I am starting to get to that point where I want someone in my life. I just can't bring myself to trust anyone. I am too afraid of being hurt. I don't know what to do. There are situations that I know could turn into something real. I just always do something to mess it up. I am not sure what to do anymore. feeling down lately. still want to have fun though. I just want to find someone that will be there for me when I need them. I need someone that is just for me and I am just for them. You know what I mean? I just dont know what to do with my life right now. I just got a new job working at bmw. making more money than I did at porsche. so that is cool. I think that I might be saving and moving out into my own place. living with two couples is starting to get to me. I feel like I am intruding in thier space. I love them to death. but living with them I feel more alone than I did when I was all alone in virginia.