irony_rocks: I know this is not... being a good time for you.
We are sending so much love in your general direction. And though I've been LJ lurking the last several months, you're a person I'm always checking in on. I admire your stubbornness, your courage, your enthusiasm, and your outspokenness. I know sometimes these feel like things you struggle with, rather than things that make you an amazing person, but all I can say is look, Meg Murray saved her dad and brother and part of the universe with the same toolkit, so go you.
As a practical matter, today will be interesting -- sunrise was 5:55 am and sunset is 8:33, work is going to be nuts, and I made the mistake of having hard crabs for dinner, so I am a walking ball of salt intake, but I did remember to take meds and brush my teeth before sunrise, as well as grabbing a little caffeine (given work-related low sleep) and some high protein foods. (Since my stomach got rewired, protein is more important to my system than complex carbs.)
The thing is -- and this is how I feel about fasting on Yom Kippur -- it's important to do this in the middle of everything that is real life, to learn to keep faith at the center, even when things are nuts. (I grew up in a blended religious family, and my own belief system is best summarized as "it's complicated" -- the Evangelical Lutheran Church of America (the other half of my blend) doesn't fast much.)
I have learned so much from you about the beauty and meaning of Islam, and for that, I am grateful. Thank you for letting me share in your traditions and worship. You are foremost in my thoughts. :)