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I hate how everyone I used to hang out with acts like we were never even friends before now.
I understand that it's hard because Nikki, Jordan and Bri aren't aloud to hang out with me anymore, but they can still pretend like they know me yahno?
Like Nikki still calls me & stuff, but it's so different now. I don't know how to explain it.
& Jordan and I have been sisters since 4th grade. She knows everything about me & she is my bestfriend, but she acts as if I dont exsist kinda & that hurts the most.
I thought we were forever no matter what life threw our way, but I guess no one can really promise forever.
&& Bri doesn't even talk to me anymore. I overreacted a bit too much & said things I didn't mean, but even after I tried to apologize she still continued to ignore me.
The sad thing is, I still love & care about those girls more then anything. I don't just say that shit & not mean it.
It just hurts so much when I look back at 9th grade or the summer & remember how happy I was because I was ALWAYS with them.
And now it's all gone. I got blamed for all the drug shit and my life got ruined.
These girls don't even look like there affected by it at all (but I could be wrong)
I don't know how to deal with this anymore. I'm sick of being sad or upset or wishing that things could go back to how they used to be.
I mean I have a pretty okay life right now with the boys. Their all so amazing & I love hanging out with them.
But the times I have with them don't even compare to all the times I spent with those girls. Nothing ever will
& that's what fucking sucks. I can never stop missing them or caring about them & that's why this hurts so fucking bad :/
I understand that it's hard because Nikki, Jordan and Bri aren't aloud to hang out with me anymore, but they can still pretend like they know me yahno?
Like Nikki still calls me & stuff, but it's so different now. I don't know how to explain it.
& Jordan and I have been sisters since 4th grade. She knows everything about me & she is my bestfriend, but she acts as if I dont exsist kinda & that hurts the most.
I thought we were forever no matter what life threw our way, but I guess no one can really promise forever.
&& Bri doesn't even talk to me anymore. I overreacted a bit too much & said things I didn't mean, but even after I tried to apologize she still continued to ignore me.
The sad thing is, I still love & care about those girls more then anything. I don't just say that shit & not mean it.
It just hurts so much when I look back at 9th grade or the summer & remember how happy I was because I was ALWAYS with them.
And now it's all gone. I got blamed for all the drug shit and my life got ruined.
These girls don't even look like there affected by it at all (but I could be wrong)
I don't know how to deal with this anymore. I'm sick of being sad or upset or wishing that things could go back to how they used to be.
I mean I have a pretty okay life right now with the boys. Their all so amazing & I love hanging out with them.
But the times I have with them don't even compare to all the times I spent with those girls. Nothing ever will
& that's what fucking sucks. I can never stop missing them or caring about them & that's why this hurts so fucking bad :/