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I haven't been writing much lately. I suppose I just haven't been in a writing mood. There wasn't anything for me to say this whole time. What would I have said about all of this? "I'm sick still, blah blah blah," "I'm recovering from surgery still blah blah blah." It would have been pointless. Today is an interesting day. I am still recovering from surgery haha. A couple of days ago I had a day where I could breathe clearly the whole day! WOW! it was really awesome. And I could smell things in the air. Today my nose is pretty stuffed up on one side, but it is still healing after all.
What can I say? I have changed so much since yesterday; since the summer; since a year ago. Dale brought up resistance today and how I tend to resist certain things that I don't particularly want to do. Homework, going to class, going to therapy, etc. So I either end up showing up late, putting off homework, or not going at all. Usually the first two. Resistance has awful consequences. It is unnatural. We naturally just want to get these things done because they are part of what we do want in the larger picture. So much has changed and is changing. What will i be like in a year?
If I could give you a quick glimpse of my experiences. One "experience" in particular. It's not really an experience though. It is the foundation of all experience. So really it is waking up to absolute reality; absolute truth. It is an intense freedom. I look at my dog and now I think, "wow, look at that manifestation of Spirit over there!" It is the best feeling in existence because it is the feeling of being free of attachments to feelings. I can feel anything, but that freedom is still there. I want so badly for you to realize that freedom too. If you are the only enlightened being how much fun will that be? It is okay of course, but it is so much more fun to have others with you.
Before there is the separation between subject and object there is only Nonduality. Once you taste it, then there is no going back. Then there is nothing to be afraid of. There is only infinite freedom
What can I say? I have changed so much since yesterday; since the summer; since a year ago. Dale brought up resistance today and how I tend to resist certain things that I don't particularly want to do. Homework, going to class, going to therapy, etc. So I either end up showing up late, putting off homework, or not going at all. Usually the first two. Resistance has awful consequences. It is unnatural. We naturally just want to get these things done because they are part of what we do want in the larger picture. So much has changed and is changing. What will i be like in a year?
If I could give you a quick glimpse of my experiences. One "experience" in particular. It's not really an experience though. It is the foundation of all experience. So really it is waking up to absolute reality; absolute truth. It is an intense freedom. I look at my dog and now I think, "wow, look at that manifestation of Spirit over there!" It is the best feeling in existence because it is the feeling of being free of attachments to feelings. I can feel anything, but that freedom is still there. I want so badly for you to realize that freedom too. If you are the only enlightened being how much fun will that be? It is okay of course, but it is so much more fun to have others with you.
Before there is the separation between subject and object there is only Nonduality. Once you taste it, then there is no going back. Then there is nothing to be afraid of. There is only infinite freedom