jet set
i finally got me my bday present- gvn2fly!! and i am headed to the west coast for my bday with my s&b! i am very excited to be going somewhere new and seeing my baby again! i just might leave it all behind and stay there too! there are some signals going up at work that my particular location will be closed and i will be in limbo there so i just might go ahead and look for work in OR. leave everything behind including b so that i am starting over completely. my s&b dont know that i am considering this but all along she has been saying fuck it all!! come out here! would love to have you here! i hate to just walk out on everything like that but lord knows i really dont care! i have nothing to keep me here really. i will miss some people but i think overall- i would be better off for the move. im pretty sure that if i go b will not be following me there- he has no idea of my thoughts here either. it will break his little heart but i think maybe he will be better off as well. his family doesnt approve of our relationship much so it might get him in better graces with them to be on his own. and your family will always be your family no matter what so girlfriends and boyfriends should never take precedence over them! and i really dont care! i have been long in the deciding of all this but it is painfully obvious to me that i should have left long ago. here we go on this roller coaster again! at least this time i am not horribly hobbled with deppression. right now i am feeling pretty good, like i need to be on my own again. now all i have to do is gather a bit of monies to tide me through a small time and i think i am ripe in the summer.......