pics
recieved long awaited photos from my s&b. one of them is a pic or her hands. she is showing off the small collection of rings she has acquired but the first thing in my eyes is- oh my god- she has my hands exactly with of course the obvious differences (nails) but otherwise exactly the same as mine. i dont know why but this brought me to tears. i guess its a little late to be thinking of how many fucked up things i could have passed on to her. sometimes the odds of an actual person being made out of a few tiny little cells just blows me away. quite often actually and i cant help thinking how soooo many people take this for granted!!!! i may add this to the magazine coming out eventually...... yes i think i will.
among other things i have been thinking of my evil ex lately. for some reason all his lies are swarming around in my head. i really dont think of him often anymore but lately the lies are whats coming back to me. i dont really need to remember them.
trent's words "i just made you up to hurt myself- and it worked!" i love that man! (trent i mean) sigh
in other news- b of my s&b will be coming for a short visit in oct but mum is the word as it is a surprise visit for his dad. i dont know if big mack will be here still by then but i hope so. thats his best friend and he misses him, almost as much if not more than me!
the m&ms are safely in japan now too! and enjoying most of it (the humidity is bad apparently) but hopefully m will get some thing going for himself there and keep it up./ nothing like mom to push you into the right thing when you have no clue!
job/homefront- petty drama at work (sheesh would every body just grow up?) still basically camping out in the tuna can but not too bad actually. we do have ac now! yay! and the animals are all happy including b! (i know i know im bad for clumping him in there but....)
so i guess all is well and im glad to be without horrible dramas all around me at the moment! though i know they are lurking......
among other things i have been thinking of my evil ex lately. for some reason all his lies are swarming around in my head. i really dont think of him often anymore but lately the lies are whats coming back to me. i dont really need to remember them.
trent's words "i just made you up to hurt myself- and it worked!" i love that man! (trent i mean) sigh
in other news- b of my s&b will be coming for a short visit in oct but mum is the word as it is a surprise visit for his dad. i dont know if big mack will be here still by then but i hope so. thats his best friend and he misses him, almost as much if not more than me!
the m&ms are safely in japan now too! and enjoying most of it (the humidity is bad apparently) but hopefully m will get some thing going for himself there and keep it up./ nothing like mom to push you into the right thing when you have no clue!
job/homefront- petty drama at work (sheesh would every body just grow up?) still basically camping out in the tuna can but not too bad actually. we do have ac now! yay! and the animals are all happy including b! (i know i know im bad for clumping him in there but....)
so i guess all is well and im glad to be without horrible dramas all around me at the moment! though i know they are lurking......