magnet to what
i somehow seem to attract men who are totally my opposite in most ways! this week, i am wandering around a neighborhood looking for good spots to sit and watch ocean from a cliff, when i see a motorcycle pretty close up to my bumper so i pull over to let him pass and he strikes up a conversation with me about various things one of which is my keep it weird bumpersticker that i got in P of O which turns out to be where this guy is from. turns out we are in front of his hoouse and he is having a party and he invites me to join him for some beers. so i pull in and we sit on his deck overlooking the ocean and drink some beers as he awaits other peoples arrival. he is really nice and as we talk i get the sinking feeling that he is much like some of exes- and sure enough- he is a practicing baptist church member(drinking beer and dancing- baptist?... not the crazy southern baptists that i knew before but...), a conservative republican in other matters and going through a divorce and the motorcycle is his midlife chrisis adrenaline machine. nice enough guy to hang out with occasionally i guess but i got the definite feeling he was interested in being more than friends. how do you find people of this tpye so eaasily i asked myself!! arre they just more approachable somehow or am i giving off the june cleaver vibes still? sheesh! or do i just like to torture myself with this sort of relationship? hmmm theres a worry! do i need to do something crazy to my hair or appearance somehow to ward off this type of guy? i kind of decided i would try that approach the lady who wrote a book did. she took one period of time (6 months or a year?) and said yes to every man who asked her out for at least one date. this opened up the type of guys she dated but seems to me it is kinda painful to put yourself through so much chaffe for so few actual stalks of wheat if you know the analogy.....
anyways, men are heavy on my mind right now as the one i was somewhat interested in has left the island for 4 months and i am feeling like doing something crazy to entertain myself. if not find someone to hang out with who wants to do more than sit at a table and drink.... which is all my friends from work want to do - either the parking lot or the patio table which is cool most times but i need some unmarried friends who want to go out and do something! maybe the pace here is going to be slow for me afterall?... hmmm will see. at least this new person has parties with lots of people showing up....another thing to make you go hmmmm....
ok- back to the crawl of life here. otherwise i am enjoying it mostly! i like the big starry night sky!! think i might get my next tattoo to be a constellation of some sort or something like that.... will see.
anyways, men are heavy on my mind right now as the one i was somewhat interested in has left the island for 4 months and i am feeling like doing something crazy to entertain myself. if not find someone to hang out with who wants to do more than sit at a table and drink.... which is all my friends from work want to do - either the parking lot or the patio table which is cool most times but i need some unmarried friends who want to go out and do something! maybe the pace here is going to be slow for me afterall?... hmmm will see. at least this new person has parties with lots of people showing up....another thing to make you go hmmmm....
ok- back to the crawl of life here. otherwise i am enjoying it mostly! i like the big starry night sky!! think i might get my next tattoo to be a constellation of some sort or something like that.... will see.