Dream...
I had an interesting dream last night...
Kiwi and I were at a college, in the "dorms". These were laid out with a bunch of living units, each with a common space and a bunch of rooms. We at Hampshire would call them mods, but that may or may not mean anything to the rest of the world, and these weren't anything like Hampshire mods - they were much too clean and large and nice. But, in any case, I was hanging out in somebody else's mod, just around the corner from where we were staying, which was where Kiwi was. I was sitting on this couch, and this kinda cute, kinda plump, kinda awkward chick kept coming over and sitting next to me and being as touchy with me as she could get away with. I was kinda weirded out by it, but I kinda liked it too, because I like touch, and it makes me feel good when people like me. So... I was kindof hoping I could keep it at the cuddly level without having to wade into more dangerous territory, because I didn't really want to go there.
She notices that I'm being kindof strange, and says, "Am I making you uncomfortable?", and I say, "No, not really. It's OK."
She says, "You like me being cuddly with you?" and I said, hesitantly, "Yeah, I like it...", and then she jumps on top of me and starts kissing me and sticking her tongue down my throat. I remember quite clearly exactly what her mouth tasted like, too, and it wasn't particularly appealing. It was kindof bitter, somehow, and I was trying to avoid getting too much of her saliva in my mouth, kiss her back a little bit so that she didn't feel totally rejected, and end the kiss as soon as possible, all at once. Eventually it ended, and then I somehow got her to come meet Kiwi, where I introduced her very definitely as my GIRLFRIEND, which was a total cop-out, and meaningless anyway.
So what does that mean? I'm a spineless idiot? I dunno, but my brain is obviously trying to get me to process SOMETHING. Heh.
Kiwi and I were at a college, in the "dorms". These were laid out with a bunch of living units, each with a common space and a bunch of rooms. We at Hampshire would call them mods, but that may or may not mean anything to the rest of the world, and these weren't anything like Hampshire mods - they were much too clean and large and nice. But, in any case, I was hanging out in somebody else's mod, just around the corner from where we were staying, which was where Kiwi was. I was sitting on this couch, and this kinda cute, kinda plump, kinda awkward chick kept coming over and sitting next to me and being as touchy with me as she could get away with. I was kinda weirded out by it, but I kinda liked it too, because I like touch, and it makes me feel good when people like me. So... I was kindof hoping I could keep it at the cuddly level without having to wade into more dangerous territory, because I didn't really want to go there.
She notices that I'm being kindof strange, and says, "Am I making you uncomfortable?", and I say, "No, not really. It's OK."
She says, "You like me being cuddly with you?" and I said, hesitantly, "Yeah, I like it...", and then she jumps on top of me and starts kissing me and sticking her tongue down my throat. I remember quite clearly exactly what her mouth tasted like, too, and it wasn't particularly appealing. It was kindof bitter, somehow, and I was trying to avoid getting too much of her saliva in my mouth, kiss her back a little bit so that she didn't feel totally rejected, and end the kiss as soon as possible, all at once. Eventually it ended, and then I somehow got her to come meet Kiwi, where I introduced her very definitely as my GIRLFRIEND, which was a total cop-out, and meaningless anyway.
So what does that mean? I'm a spineless idiot? I dunno, but my brain is obviously trying to get me to process SOMETHING. Heh.