[Songfic] Killer
Title: [Songfic] Killer
Rating: PG for insinuations
Pairings: Ryan/Greg (past), Ryan/Jeff, Greg/Jeff
Word Count: 993
Disclaimer: I don’t own the song I stole the lyrics from or Whose Line
Notes: The lyrics are from Serial Killer by Slash’s Snakepit. I’m a die-hard Classic Rock fan and when I heard these lyrics I couldn’t resist. I have to warn you this is my first songfic attempt so it may be slightly painful to read. The story is that Ryan and Greg were a couple when Ryan cheated on Greg with Jeff, consequently Greg found out. This is a bit of retribution, given from Greg’s POV and directed towards Jeff.
Here we are, alone now
Just you and me
Down the halls we waltz
Your end is in my dreams
You knew what was coming the minute I appeared on your doorstep. There was no one else involved and you knew exactly why I was there. You insisted on polite chitchat, skirting around the subject we both knew was coming. I bet you wondered what you were doing, stepping back to allow me to enter. You have no one to blame apart from yourself.
I like the smell of fear that makes you paralysed
I am the boy next door who put that fear in your eyes
I can tell you’re nervous. Every jumpy action, every stumbled word accentuates the fear that’s rolling off you. You’re starting to doubt yourself, you’re definitely starting to doubt my every move towards you, and you’re wondering why you let me in so willing. You know who I am.
I hope you can leave all this for yourself
I’ll be your slave and dig your grave
While we’re making love I dream…
I’m digging your grave, but you’re the own who’s freely laying it in. I’ll do everything you want me to, because you’re fulfilling my every need without even realising it. You know where our actions will lead, the consequences we will surely have to face in the morning. I take your hand and lead you towards your bed, the one you’ve shared so often with Ryan, and I imagine it’s him not you arching beneath me. I know his smell, his body, the sounds he makes. It’s not hard to replace you with him.
They say I’m crazy, falling apart
Do you like the way, I murdered your heart?
I’m smart and cagey, I come in the night
If you let me in, you’ll give up your life
You let me in. You gave up all rights to protest the moment you pushed the door open. Some say I’m crazy, you will too in time. But soon you’ll find out who’s to blame for my apparent craziness, why I must hide from Ryan and use the cover of darkness to capture you. You’ll give up everything so that I can have what I desire.
Now I open my head and let his voodoo in
I rode those sissy bars all the way to hell
Sweet mother justice, I’ve heard it all
There’s nothing left to tell
He hypnotised me, flooded every sense with his poison. If I told you it was justice, you wouldn’t believe me. You would believe that there would have to be some deeper meaning, but truth is that justice needs to be served. The punishment must fit the crime. I’ve been in turmoil and now I’ve accepted that this was the only way. You too must accept that.
I hope you didn’t need all this for yourself
And the man with the star says he knows who you are
You were warned by Ryan to stay away from me. He knew what I was capable of, and he knew you were too weak. I bet he told you never to open the door to me. Sometimes I wonder what it took him to get you into his bed. A glass of wine? A glass of whiskey even? Or maybe it was that irresistible grin and quiet insistence? He is the key, and he knows us both too well.
They say I’m crazy, falling apart
Do you like the way, I murdered your heart?
I’m smart and cagey, I come in the night
If you let me in, you’ll give up your life
I’m falling apart, and you are my only chance at sanity. You’ll give up your life so that mine may continue. You may not agree with it, but it should provide you with a degree of comfort. I knew you’d let me in. You knew what would happen. Question is, does Ryan know how irresistible I can really be? How weak you can really be?
He’s not the man you see at home
He’s someone else inside
His life’s no longer his own
He’s someone else inside
Creepin’ up when you’re alone
And now he stands inside
He isn’t the person you see on stage, laughing and making jokes. He isn’t even the person who is sharing your bed with you. You won’t see who Ryan Stiles truly is until it’s too late. He made me into an empty shell, and I must use you to return to the person I once was. You can blame whom you wish, me, Ryan, yourself. It makes no difference.
He wants to take you to hell
But for him it’s heaven
I could only see one way to ensure the correct outcome. I could warn you against him, the eternal betrayer, but it would be pointless. You’ll find your way out of what I have planned for you, and I shall take little joy from it. But he will destroy your soul, and not even realise what he’s doing. He is more heartless than I am.
Sorry to say but you’re not the only one
You’re not the lonely one that turned my light on
While I turned yours off…
I told Ryan what we did. I told him that he wasn’t the only one sharing a bed with his precious Jeff. I gave him all the sordid details, to make him feel how I felt. I know I should hold some remorse for you Jeff, but you stole Ryan from me and retribution must be given. You ask if it was worth it. I don’t answer.
Boom, boom, bang, bang, screams in the dark
If you let him in, he’ll murder your heart
I murdered your heart, made you feel what I felt. I hope you are alone at night, like I am. There is no one to blame apart from yourself. You let me in, and I murdered your heart.