happy un-anniversary
Five years ago tonight, I went on stage with Britney at the VMAs. I was 16, and I had pink hair and my legs were too long for the rest of my body. I wore silver pants and fell flat on my ass during the performance.
I was humiliated, but in the end it wasn't so bad because someone came to me after the show and told me that I was great, and that he hadn't even noticed the fall. A lie, but it was sweet. He also told me that I had nice hair. And that was the beginning.
I can honestly say today that I wish I hadn't been in that performance. It would have saved me a lot of pain in the end. New Years certainly would have turned out differently.
I think I'm done. I really don't have anything left to say anymore. I've talked about my pain and my sadness and my bitterness. And since that's all I have left, there's really nothing left to say.
I'm going to just hang out with my friends and those people that offered to help me out. And try to put myself back together. Try to be happy. Or something resembling happy. And then I might show up again. That might take around 6 weeks, who knows. In the meantime, thank you to everyone. Take care.
I was humiliated, but in the end it wasn't so bad because someone came to me after the show and told me that I was great, and that he hadn't even noticed the fall. A lie, but it was sweet. He also told me that I had nice hair. And that was the beginning.
I can honestly say today that I wish I hadn't been in that performance. It would have saved me a lot of pain in the end. New Years certainly would have turned out differently.
I think I'm done. I really don't have anything left to say anymore. I've talked about my pain and my sadness and my bitterness. And since that's all I have left, there's really nothing left to say.
I'm going to just hang out with my friends and those people that offered to help me out. And try to put myself back together. Try to be happy. Or something resembling happy. And then I might show up again. That might take around 6 weeks, who knows. In the meantime, thank you to everyone. Take care.