Eleventh Spell

[wizital]

I'm curious, if you have spare time to talk.

What is the difference between love of a friend, and love of a 'boyfriend' and a 'girlfriend'?

From what I remember in my world, we have nothing of the latter. The only difference I know is that I love some of my friends more than others.

((OOC: since the digital world doesn't require breeding, I figured it

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[a_severed_fate]

Are you still having trouble with this, Wizarmon?

I wouldn't be able to explain it very well... but perhaps if you compared your feelings for a friend to something that you like... maybe a flower, or a dessert, or a very well-crafted weapon, and then your feelings for a boyfriend or a girlfriend to the prime example of such a thing... a rare species of flower that you want to see thrive, or the dish you could eat every single day of the week without getting bored, or the finest sword in a king's treasury that was forged by a highly revered blacksmith...

...um....

[Wow, Tear, this sounds really REALLY lame coming from you. And she notices it, too.]...L-like I said, I wouldn't know

[wizital]

I'm sorry that I keep having such confusions... I've never had to deal with these sort of emotions and terms before. It's all very new to me.

But... those explanations do help. They were very beautiful to here... and... I think I understand them better now than before, because the last time I asked, I had less memories than I do now. I've remembered someone very important to me, and this has made my life all the more meaningful. This one person means more to me than anyone else I've met here.

... I may be, slowly, begining to understand the difference... but I still have a long way to go.

[a_severed_fate]

It's okay. Everyone gets confused sometimes. I think it would be even more difficult to find someone who never felt that way. If nothing else, being in this situation seems to have allowed a lot of us to learn about and experience things that we never would have been exposed to back where we came from. In that respect, it might not be such a bad thing.

A-ah... They weren't really. I was just thinking of someone I know and trying to explain it in a way that even he'd be able to understand. It's easier to grasp a concept if you can relate it to something you already know.

[Smiles a little, despite herself, wherever she is.]

I see.

But either way you're making progress, and as long as that trend continues, I'm sure you'll be able to reach your goal.

[wizital]

I agree completely. To learn not only about ourselves, but those around is... it's a great experience. I do not think I will regret gaining all of this knowledge of different peoples and cultures... which is why I enjoyed your explanations so much. There's no need to doubt yourself, I can tell you put your heart into it. And I thank you for it.

My goal... Yes, I know I will reach it. I have to. In a place like this, you can only go forward.

[a_severed_fate]

Yes. I recently learned that space travel is possible, for example. Back in my world, that's still a far off dream and we don't currently have the technology required to accomplish such a feat.

There's no reason to regret gaining knowledge in the first place; you can only regret not utilizing the knowledge you currently possess. But it's not that I doubt myself. To be honest, I don't understand emotions very well either. During my training, I was instructed to be strong and to cast out the feelings that could distract me. You see, when you're fighting, if you show pity for your enemy, you can endanger your comrades and create an opening for an attack. There's no place for compassion in a serious battle.

However, I'm not fighting here. I'm getting to know the people around me. I no longer have to suppress my emotions, but I have shut them out for so long that they've become perplexing.

...forward. That's a good way to look at it.