May 20, 2006 00:17
So I think there's something the matter with the universe and the way things are run in it regarding my existence.
How come I think i am seriously crushing on this dude and there's no possible way it'll work out.
It's weird the way I feel about him.
He makes me feel extremely buoyant. Like he'll ask me the questions that I'll have the most trouble answering but would love figuring out anyway.
I feel like him and me fit. like yin and yang. But better. Like things that are meant to fit but aren't necessarily opposites.
I love how his fingers just gently pluck the guitar strings and how it feels like they're tugging something deeper in the universe and it comes alive.
Its the way I feel about music. I can't live with out it. So much so that if there was no music available I make it myself. How ever discordant. I REQUIRE it.
It is the essence of my being. That's how I feel about him.
That if he were gone, it'd be like the music left.
I would truly mourn that.
He feels like a soulmate. To me. And I have never said that before about anyone.
I have said I fell in love and that we were meant to be and all that chic-lit blah blah, but soul-mate. That's a big word. 2 words.
2 big words.