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things are good.
work is good.
i'm 20 now.
wierd.
emma's almost 18.
kendall met erica last night. we went for wings at quaker steak.
when is chapel hill and app's spring break?
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on a cheesier note....
i can't decide what to live for? is there anything to live for? (i dont mean it to be that depressing)...
what i mean is...what is life about? am i supposed to create a life of meaning, or a life of happiness?
do i strive to change the world around me, and travel, and go on exciting adventures and be romantic like that? or should i try to just make a living and become independent and live a life most people are proud of. decent house. a car. family. enough money, but not rich. vacations. coworkers.
in other words... i can't find a grey area when thinking about broad things in the world. there's music, cartoons, playgrounds, trees, happiness, etc. and then theres war, death, darfur, wal-mart, dick cheney, etc.
i can focus on fighting against bad things, and then never being able to be happy cuz theres no much wrong. or then i can just ignore that stuff and live a nice middle class life...but everyonce in a while feeling insanely guilty for what i have and what others don't have.
and then ....we're all just as small as germs in the big picture.
what really matters?
or does anything matter?
which is a greater adventure? life or death?
everybody sucks.
except you.
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does anybody else get confused with m's and rn's? especially in words where both can create different meanings. like...corn and com.
barn bam, etc.
maybe its just my font.