[AIM Log] Harry Apologizes to Lupin
Who Remus and Harry
Where Lupin's office
What Harry goes to apologize to Remus about ditching class.
Warnings Remus might be a little gay for Sirius. XDDDDD
Remus sat in his office, pondering his first lesson. He missed teaching the students. He missed their smiling faces and enthusiasm over learning. Some more than others. However, Remus noticed that one smiling face was missing from the mass. As he sat in his office, he wondered where the green eyed miracle could be.
Harry did not want to do this. He would much rather have run back to his dorm and hid from it, but his conversation with Hermione rang in his words, as did so many other things she told him. He would have to do it eventually, or risk getting in trouble with Dumbledore, or worse getting kicked out of Hogwarts. Did they kick people out of Hogwarts for skiving? He sucked up his feelings and knocked politely on Lupin's office before poking his head in the door and saying "Professor?" in an uncertain voice he was not happy with.
The very boy Remus was wondering about hesitantly entered his office. Remus could see the internal battle within Harry, struggling with his conscience. "Harry" Remus said in a warm tone. After all, he did miss him. "what can I do for you?" Remus asked politely
"I wanted to apologize for..." he cleared his throat to get rid of the nervous tone. "Not being here." He wanted to continue by telling Lupin all of the reasons he hadn't wanted to attend class, but he couldn't form the words.
Remus noticed the nervousness. Perhaps it was a sixth sense from his disease. "It's alright." Remus replied quietly. "I didn't expect you to run into classes energetically. In fact, I didn't expect to see you for another couple of days."
Harry was confused by this. "You didn't?" he asked. How did Lupin always seem to know so much?
"Harry, what you went through... I only assumed that by seeing me it would only remind you. I expected your friends to talk some sense into you after a few days. So, I can't deny the fact I am surprised to see you standing in my office a mere 4 hours after the first class you've ever missed."
Harry grinned a little, he couldn't help it. "Well, I guess Hermione just works faster than you thought," he admitted. "She's the one who talked sense into me."
"I'll have to thank her." Remus smiled. Looking at Harry, he could see the transformation that had occurred from third year until now. He was no longer the scrawny little boy, but a man, standing before his judge, fully taking blame and awaiting his punishment. "Harry, Is there anything you want to talk about?" Remus prodded gently.
Harry looked away from Lupin and around the room, pretending to be interested in what the professor had done to it when he really just wasn't sure he could meet the older man's eyes. "Do you miss him?" he asked, trying to keep his tone causal.
"Every moment" Remus answered somberly. Remus understood Harry's pain. Probably more than he knew. But each of them hurt in a different way, and all they could do was remember. "I know it hurts. I know you wake up every morning, happy in your pseudo-dreams. But then it hits you. But you have to learn to accept it, Harry. He died proudly. Don't take that away from him by wishing him back."
Harry looked at Remus, torn between really wanting to connect with the man and really wanting to hate him for being so calm. Finally he nodded. "Thanks Professor," he said. "I'll try to be at class on time from now on."
Remus watched as Harry turned and left his office. He felt the all-so-familiar feeling of nausea well up in his stomach any time he thought about Sirius. He closed his eyes and tried to subdue the memories and the tears. Sirius would bully him if he knew Remus was crying. Remus could only hope the Harry would learn to forget, as Remus had been.
Where Lupin's office
What Harry goes to apologize to Remus about ditching class.
Warnings Remus might be a little gay for Sirius. XDDDDD
Remus sat in his office, pondering his first lesson. He missed teaching the students. He missed their smiling faces and enthusiasm over learning. Some more than others. However, Remus noticed that one smiling face was missing from the mass. As he sat in his office, he wondered where the green eyed miracle could be.
Harry did not want to do this. He would much rather have run back to his dorm and hid from it, but his conversation with Hermione rang in his words, as did so many other things she told him. He would have to do it eventually, or risk getting in trouble with Dumbledore, or worse getting kicked out of Hogwarts. Did they kick people out of Hogwarts for skiving? He sucked up his feelings and knocked politely on Lupin's office before poking his head in the door and saying "Professor?" in an uncertain voice he was not happy with.
The very boy Remus was wondering about hesitantly entered his office. Remus could see the internal battle within Harry, struggling with his conscience. "Harry" Remus said in a warm tone. After all, he did miss him. "what can I do for you?" Remus asked politely
"I wanted to apologize for..." he cleared his throat to get rid of the nervous tone. "Not being here." He wanted to continue by telling Lupin all of the reasons he hadn't wanted to attend class, but he couldn't form the words.
Remus noticed the nervousness. Perhaps it was a sixth sense from his disease. "It's alright." Remus replied quietly. "I didn't expect you to run into classes energetically. In fact, I didn't expect to see you for another couple of days."
Harry was confused by this. "You didn't?" he asked. How did Lupin always seem to know so much?
"Harry, what you went through... I only assumed that by seeing me it would only remind you. I expected your friends to talk some sense into you after a few days. So, I can't deny the fact I am surprised to see you standing in my office a mere 4 hours after the first class you've ever missed."
Harry grinned a little, he couldn't help it. "Well, I guess Hermione just works faster than you thought," he admitted. "She's the one who talked sense into me."
"I'll have to thank her." Remus smiled. Looking at Harry, he could see the transformation that had occurred from third year until now. He was no longer the scrawny little boy, but a man, standing before his judge, fully taking blame and awaiting his punishment. "Harry, Is there anything you want to talk about?" Remus prodded gently.
Harry looked away from Lupin and around the room, pretending to be interested in what the professor had done to it when he really just wasn't sure he could meet the older man's eyes. "Do you miss him?" he asked, trying to keep his tone causal.
"Every moment" Remus answered somberly. Remus understood Harry's pain. Probably more than he knew. But each of them hurt in a different way, and all they could do was remember. "I know it hurts. I know you wake up every morning, happy in your pseudo-dreams. But then it hits you. But you have to learn to accept it, Harry. He died proudly. Don't take that away from him by wishing him back."
Harry looked at Remus, torn between really wanting to connect with the man and really wanting to hate him for being so calm. Finally he nodded. "Thanks Professor," he said. "I'll try to be at class on time from now on."
Remus watched as Harry turned and left his office. He felt the all-so-familiar feeling of nausea well up in his stomach any time he thought about Sirius. He closed his eyes and tried to subdue the memories and the tears. Sirius would bully him if he knew Remus was crying. Remus could only hope the Harry would learn to forget, as Remus had been.