Sep 06, 2006 21:21
Baby I love you honeslty prolly more than u know!!!! I really dont mean to keep bringing up the breaking up thing but i'll explain why(even though i know it isnt right and i WILL quit saying that to you). I know u know i love u,i really an truly do baby! But sometimes i wonder if u think that im mad a lot of times then why are we together.AND THATS NO TO SAY WE SHOULDNT BE! But i feel as if u should know that im not gonna get mad at u all the time or if u knew how much i truly loved u would know that i dont wanna be mad,or check up on u,have to answer to me or any of the things that u've said that i respond with that statement.I really shouldnt say it.cuz i dont want u to think im hanging it over ur head.And i realized today that i was being a hyporcrit.Because if i realized how much u truly loved me i wouldnt keep saying that.It hurts u and im sorry,I'd never want to hurt u!But i Did and i do.The same way some of the things u say hurt me.And it isnt right for me to do it either.I did what u said and i reversed the sides.What if u said that to me? And i realized how much i wouldnt like it and so..IM SORRY!!!I was VERY VERY wrong to use it! And i just wanted to let you know that i love you with all my heart and soul Chris! You're the one person in this world that i could trust everything with.I tell you everything,i gave you my heart,i'd do anything u'd ask of me,i want to be someone u can love and see urself with for a long time,i want u to be able to trust and count on me,to know that i'll always be there for you WHENEVER u need me and whatever the case me be,i wanna come to ur rescue if u needed me to,defend ur honor,be the woman u think so highly of! I cant be those things whenever i say things like that, so i wont!Because ur my everything!I'd give my all for u! and it really does make me teary eyed just thinking about how much i love you! And even though i say u dont know,i dont even think i could really even tell you! But i'll show you just how much u mean to me!! Everyday that i can,for as long as u give me the chance!Ur my life and my love! I promise not to hurt you baby!i'll do nothing to harm you.It hurts me to see or hear that ur upset. I know u made a list becuz u say u need to change,and truth is we both could!Im not a perfect person.But like my mom said Love isnt finding the perfect person,its seeing an imperfect person perfectly! and its true.Becuz even if i am doing anything wrong u see me as doing everything right and same goes for me.i love u so much that all ur faults and mistakes along the way are erased.Becuz in my mind ur perfect!You're what i've always wanted,what i always want,the man that i couldnt even try to see myself without!You may not think ur perfect but ur mine! and i love u for all that u are.The complete package. Chris Arnold as he was,Is and whatever he will be!