A week ago my life was dust I wanted just to disapear, but now it just may be a happy new year
Well, NYE 2006 was more positive than the way it had seemed it was going to turn out. Nicci invited me to a small party @ Joe's where we mingled and played beer pong. Lot of fun-- I really like hanging out with Nicci and Joe and Jill when Ryan isn't around for her to hang all over.. Good times. Midnight kiss from Geo, I <3 him. Overall a fun night even with needing to wake up to work at 730. Oh well. C's always hungover/still drunk at work.
What does 2006 bring? Well, seing it started way better than 2005-- hopefully good things are in store. I've restored confidence in myself through finally being able to manage one disorder and being in the process of conquering to the best possible the other. Thank goodness for the wonders of modern chemistry and medicine. I feel like a new person. Haircut is coming soon. I'm not quite sure when it will occur, but the length is closing in on scissor time. 2006 brings in a confident approach to pursuing Ryan-- I was passive before, but after the past week's boost I hope to get something accomplished finally. Lastly 2006 amounts to confusion and uncertainty. With graduation in May and a looming question mark, I'm filling out applications like mad hoping that at least something will open up doors. Although the doors that will open lead to other states and new starts as well as the uncertainty of a low salary. But I'll make it on what I have and be damn happy. (see previous entry) Dallas, San Diego, Montgomery, Colombia?..MSU... no idea.
Resolutions seem foolish to me, since I know I never hold to them. But with this wave of confidence instilled in a few minor routine changes which resulted in large daily boosts of confidence and poise I hope to make use of the feeling that has given me and go forth. The gym or pool will be frequented more, more attention will be paid to detail. I want to hold my head up this year, since at least 11 months of last year were spent in hanging it. But that is gone, and I only look forward into this unsure future eyes wide and head up in a new confidence.
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What does 2006 bring? Well, seing it started way better than 2005-- hopefully good things are in store. I've restored confidence in myself through finally being able to manage one disorder and being in the process of conquering to the best possible the other. Thank goodness for the wonders of modern chemistry and medicine. I feel like a new person. Haircut is coming soon. I'm not quite sure when it will occur, but the length is closing in on scissor time. 2006 brings in a confident approach to pursuing Ryan-- I was passive before, but after the past week's boost I hope to get something accomplished finally. Lastly 2006 amounts to confusion and uncertainty. With graduation in May and a looming question mark, I'm filling out applications like mad hoping that at least something will open up doors. Although the doors that will open lead to other states and new starts as well as the uncertainty of a low salary. But I'll make it on what I have and be damn happy. (see previous entry) Dallas, San Diego, Montgomery, Colombia?..MSU... no idea.
Resolutions seem foolish to me, since I know I never hold to them. But with this wave of confidence instilled in a few minor routine changes which resulted in large daily boosts of confidence and poise I hope to make use of the feeling that has given me and go forth. The gym or pool will be frequented more, more attention will be paid to detail. I want to hold my head up this year, since at least 11 months of last year were spent in hanging it. But that is gone, and I only look forward into this unsure future eyes wide and head up in a new confidence.
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