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Work just cracked me up this weekend.
Mrs. C coming up and whispering in my ear "He's here with a woman, I thought he was a gay!" just goes down in history as a total classic. Only to have her come back up later and say "They're his parents. He's with the guy still. He's a gay." just killed me.
And speaking of gay, I missed George this weekend, and Cody just cracks me up-- although I'm still not too too sure if he is yet. Funny boys. Dave is great too, totally cute in an absolutely not my type way.. walking around in his new baker hat he loves so much... he kills me.-- now that I've finally got to know him from doing some mornings. Erin and I had some good convo waiting for a table to leave after she asked about Frank and I. "What a sack of shit!" coming out of her was so funny. Ahhh good times.
The cutest boy came in and got soup today at close-- thank God the doors weren't locked yet. We talked while Chris took his sweet ass time (good thing for dumbass in the kitchen). I should've put my number on his reciept. Damn. Stupid.
But I know I'm not ready. That could be seen by this weekend-- went out to meet Justin Saturday... walks up and what is he wearing? Oh yes, the Boston hat I got Frank for x-mas. Wanted to leave. Shrugged off the coincidence. Sat down @ Applebee's. Server's name is Melissa. Nearly got up and left so soon as I got there. But took the sign from above and tried to calmly get through eating w/o wigging out. Why--was that such an issue I know you're asking. On Frank and my 1st date, our server's name was Melissa. Steph was like why do you remember that? Because duh her name was my name and we made a big deal out of it, I couldn't have told you if her name was Jane but we had the same name and we laughed about it for a while that's why I remembered only when I sat down and had an extremely bad case of deja vu
It's stuff like that that's going to make picking up the pieces hard. I still have my elephant on the floor and look at it every day--although I know it makes it worse. Everything else that reminds me of him is put away. However it may just be my brain tricking me, or Natale the elephant still smells like him (It used to just reak of him) but I still catch a wiff every once and a while and get trapped thinking of him again.
Hence the insomnia: i.e. 1:30am entry.
Other stuff. I don't know. Haven't talked to Harlan, she probably hates me (among others). Tony Marsili e-mailed me the other night and totally made my day/night/week you name it. There's someone with truly the kindest heart. Incredible. shit, I forgot to call him back.
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Mrs. C coming up and whispering in my ear "He's here with a woman, I thought he was a gay!" just goes down in history as a total classic. Only to have her come back up later and say "They're his parents. He's with the guy still. He's a gay." just killed me.
And speaking of gay, I missed George this weekend, and Cody just cracks me up-- although I'm still not too too sure if he is yet. Funny boys. Dave is great too, totally cute in an absolutely not my type way.. walking around in his new baker hat he loves so much... he kills me.-- now that I've finally got to know him from doing some mornings. Erin and I had some good convo waiting for a table to leave after she asked about Frank and I. "What a sack of shit!" coming out of her was so funny. Ahhh good times.
The cutest boy came in and got soup today at close-- thank God the doors weren't locked yet. We talked while Chris took his sweet ass time (good thing for dumbass in the kitchen). I should've put my number on his reciept. Damn. Stupid.
But I know I'm not ready. That could be seen by this weekend-- went out to meet Justin Saturday... walks up and what is he wearing? Oh yes, the Boston hat I got Frank for x-mas. Wanted to leave. Shrugged off the coincidence. Sat down @ Applebee's. Server's name is Melissa. Nearly got up and left so soon as I got there. But took the sign from above and tried to calmly get through eating w/o wigging out. Why--was that such an issue I know you're asking. On Frank and my 1st date, our server's name was Melissa. Steph was like why do you remember that? Because duh her name was my name and we made a big deal out of it, I couldn't have told you if her name was Jane but we had the same name and we laughed about it for a while that's why I remembered only when I sat down and had an extremely bad case of deja vu
It's stuff like that that's going to make picking up the pieces hard. I still have my elephant on the floor and look at it every day--although I know it makes it worse. Everything else that reminds me of him is put away. However it may just be my brain tricking me, or Natale the elephant still smells like him (It used to just reak of him) but I still catch a wiff every once and a while and get trapped thinking of him again.
Hence the insomnia: i.e. 1:30am entry.
Other stuff. I don't know. Haven't talked to Harlan, she probably hates me (among others). Tony Marsili e-mailed me the other night and totally made my day/night/week you name it. There's someone with truly the kindest heart. Incredible. shit, I forgot to call him back.
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