I wish...
...I could just jump from date to date without regard for the preceding person's feelings.
Seems like most of the people I know have no problem operating that way, so why can't I be any different?
Maybe because I'm the girl that only sleeps with one person a year... has maybe 6 months in between relationships... doesn't make sex a priority in a relationship because it shouldn't have to be.
I should be learning from these people. How do I become a player? How do I become a love 'em and leave 'em type of girl?
And do I want to be? Because some of the most wonderful and attractive people I know aren't the type to want to settle down or be monogamous. Maybe I've got the wrong idea by wanting the security of knowing that when someone isn't sleeping with me, they're not sleeping with anyone but themselves.
Frankly I don't think that's too much to ask for.
And I don't think I'm insane, and I don't think I'm attempting to act too old by wanting a monogamous relationship. Am I seriously some kind of freak of nature because I'm just shy of 21 and I'm not into casually dating a handful of people at once?
I know I'm going to get through this, but it's just really hard knowing that I'm chin deep in a community that frowns upon monogamy. If I had known that lesbians were like this, I would have stayed closeted.
Seems like most of the people I know have no problem operating that way, so why can't I be any different?
Maybe because I'm the girl that only sleeps with one person a year... has maybe 6 months in between relationships... doesn't make sex a priority in a relationship because it shouldn't have to be.
I should be learning from these people. How do I become a player? How do I become a love 'em and leave 'em type of girl?
And do I want to be? Because some of the most wonderful and attractive people I know aren't the type to want to settle down or be monogamous. Maybe I've got the wrong idea by wanting the security of knowing that when someone isn't sleeping with me, they're not sleeping with anyone but themselves.
Frankly I don't think that's too much to ask for.
And I don't think I'm insane, and I don't think I'm attempting to act too old by wanting a monogamous relationship. Am I seriously some kind of freak of nature because I'm just shy of 21 and I'm not into casually dating a handful of people at once?
I know I'm going to get through this, but it's just really hard knowing that I'm chin deep in a community that frowns upon monogamy. If I had known that lesbians were like this, I would have stayed closeted.