Come Back Home
Heartache.
I miss him so much: Billy.
If I could transfer from SHSU at this very moment...I would.
I'm at my happiest when I'm with him.
But because I'm more than aware of this...I fear him as well.
He's the only one with the power to tear me down.
How?
He has my heart.
I'm done denying it.
Many would ask: How can you trust him? He's hours away from you.
That's true. But he's not mine to worry about.
So...with saying that...
I can't help but ask myself: Why am I waiting on him?
I could.
I could go on and take notice of all these pigs eyein' me...BUT.
I've never been one to flirt and I've never been one to take a huge interest in boys.
To be honest, I never meant to get so caught up with Billy.
That wasn't my intention.
It just happened.
And as heartless, cruel, cold, indifferent as I can be towards the general male...I never could find it in my heart to turn away from him.
He intrigued me from day one.
I guess, looking back, I can say that this sort of scared me.
I tried avoiding him...thought of bailing like I had done with all the others but...I always found myself searching for him rather than settling in the shadows.
Dunno...
There's something about Billy.
Maybe his coming into my life wasn't coincidence...
...maybe it was something more.
Heh...my eyes are brimming with tears.
I really love this kidd.
I'll end with this:
Whether or not he feels the same about me...
...I'll always be his.
I miss him so much: Billy.
If I could transfer from SHSU at this very moment...I would.
I'm at my happiest when I'm with him.
But because I'm more than aware of this...I fear him as well.
He's the only one with the power to tear me down.
How?
He has my heart.
I'm done denying it.
Many would ask: How can you trust him? He's hours away from you.
That's true. But he's not mine to worry about.
So...with saying that...
I can't help but ask myself: Why am I waiting on him?
I could.
I could go on and take notice of all these pigs eyein' me...BUT.
I've never been one to flirt and I've never been one to take a huge interest in boys.
To be honest, I never meant to get so caught up with Billy.
That wasn't my intention.
It just happened.
And as heartless, cruel, cold, indifferent as I can be towards the general male...I never could find it in my heart to turn away from him.
He intrigued me from day one.
I guess, looking back, I can say that this sort of scared me.
I tried avoiding him...thought of bailing like I had done with all the others but...I always found myself searching for him rather than settling in the shadows.
Dunno...
There's something about Billy.
Maybe his coming into my life wasn't coincidence...
...maybe it was something more.
Heh...my eyes are brimming with tears.
I really love this kidd.
I'll end with this:
Whether or not he feels the same about me...
...I'll always be his.