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wow... well i guess thats the end of that... 7 months down the drain for what? just another friend? i'm so sick of this shit... i can't win no matter what i do :(, although i am feeling a bit better today, i am gunna try to be his friend, like he wants... i respect his decision, but it still hurts, i've never got back with anyone before... never, i'm so stupid and naive. i can't get over how shitty i feel right now, i didn't sleep at all last night, my eyes are swollen, aaannnddd my heart is shattered :(.... i feel like i could just break into tears any second. i'm never good enough no matter how hard i try, they always like your friends instead of you... story of my life. i'm soon going to be a shut in so that i have no friends, and someone will like me for me. i can't live like this it sucks, i feel so stuuuuupid!!!! i'm sorry i'm going off like this, i'm sure all of you guys don't really wanna listen to this, but i have no one to tell... fuck.... i can't write anymore.