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I hate this house.
I wonder sometimes if other homes are as disfunctional as ours.
and if they are, what is wrong with our parents?
because i do strongly believe they are the MAIN reason house holds are broken.
"staying together for the kids" is the lamest thing i've ever heard
because children arent blind to how their parents feel
and parents never hide their feelings well enough
mine never did
and i know others dont either
when parents stay together it just makes the future more fucked up than it needs to be for the kids
my house would be so much calmer if both my parens didnt live together
sometimes i wonder if its just my mom
shes crazy. power trip to the max.
i wish i had the money to move out
because nothing about my house feels like home anymore besides my cave of a room.
i dont like coming home until everyone is aleep
and apparently thats a problem to my parents
but they dont get it.
or just dont care.
its probably the second one.
i just hope that when i get married that my marriage is healthy
and i hope i can understand my children
better than my parents understand me
how can two people who were so in love hate eachother years later.
i just dont get it
and i dont get why they dont fight to get it back.
long entry.
i'm done i swear.