late night musings
soooo....i got back from northwestern this morning. even though it was really supposed to be last night, but my flight got delayed...alot. and it totally sucked, because then i had to drive back to school and take a theory test, which definitely could have been better. but as far as northwestern goes, i really liked it. the campus is gorgeous, i got to go down and spend time down by the beach, which was amazing. the bassoon professor is really nice, and he wants me to come back for an audition..which makes me really happy. campus definitely gave me the dead poets society feel, all old stone and ivy covered buildings, and just going in the music school had this really old fashioned boarding school feeling to it, it was great. it was definitely kind of weird though, because everyone in the admissions office knew who i was, even though i didn't introduce myself to any of them. i got to meet a couple of the bassoonists, ok, well 3 of them..which i think is more than i've ever seen in one place at one time..so it was pretty exciting, and they were all really nice. the best part was definitely hanging outside the beehive, which is a building that is all practice rooms, and just listening to people practice, because there's one section of the main, well main-er campus where all you hear is music coming out of every window, and it's just awesome. you can definitely tell it's a music school because there's no such thing as a sound proof practice room. everyone can hear everyone else, which i think is really cool, because it's fun to just stand in the hallway and just listen to everything going on, even if some of it is a little less harmonious than you'd like. so yeah, now all i need to do is seriously kick major ass on my audition, and i think i'll be ok, but we'll see what happens. it's not really in my hands, i can only do the best that i can, and as someone very close to my heart told me last night as i sat in the airport, "if you're supposed to go to northwestern, it'll happen". which made me smile. well, the whole conversation(s) made me smile, but i'll not do that whole sappy thing, but you definitely made my night.
so now i'm back at hartwick, and i have this stupid recital to sing at on sunday. it's not even that i don't like what we're supposed to sing, (i <3 come what may...yay for moulin rouge). but it's jess, who is driving me completely and totally nuts. thank god i don't have to deal with her for the opera, because i don't think i could stand her constant mispronounciation of words. plus just listening to her sing her recital stuff gives me a headache. she's doing this really cool vocalise thing by vaughn williams for voice and clarinet, but it would be sooo much better if she opened her mouth when she sang, and then maybe, just maybe she wouldn't sound like britney spears or ssome cheesey pop star. (someone also needs to tell her that it's a bad thing that her pronouncing Jesus in german can be confused for her singing "yay, zeus!" because that's what it sounds like. i can't even tell she's actually singing german half the time for that piece, and it drives me nuts). plus she thinks that me being her friend means that she can put down every other musician that she has a problem with and that won't bother me. well guess what?? it really does, because you're not little miss perfect, far from it. i'm sorry that a freshman soprano doesn't sound as good as a junior who's had 3 years of voice instruction does, but that doesn't mean she's a bitch, or inferior, or that she's not a musician. also, you complain about how she does the same repetoire as you? let me explain it for you. she has the same voice teacher as you, she sings the same part as you, guess what? you're going to do some of the same stuff. that doesn't mean she's trying to be you. least i hope not. also, insulting every other flutist doesn't make you better, and it really kind of irks me just a little, because everyone has there flaws, and we all perform differently, play differently, whatever. that doesn't make you better, just because someone sounds different then the way you do or you think they should sound. just let it go. seriously. it's getting old.
so next week is hell week for this stupid opera. i've just about had it with Purcell. i'm sure that, with a full orchestra and a quasi compitent choir, (not the soloists, for the most part they're ok but some parts of the chorus need serious help *cough* basses) it would be really fun. not that people in wind ensemble can't play the music, or it doesn't sound good, but there's just something about taking an orchestral score and reducing it to an ensemble of..however many we are...25. something just gets lost in the translation. it's great that we spend so much time perfecting the opera, but it would also be nice if, every once in awhile, just for fun we played something different. then maybe people would actually want to go to rehearsal, instead of just blowing it off. oh well, guess i'll just have to cope. oh, and the whole waiting around till saturday to play for graduation sucks hardcore. for 450 (which isn't that bad price wise) you could hire three really top notch musicians to play for graduation, and they might actually play something people want to hear. but no, hartwick has to be cheap and make the wind ensemble twiddle their thumbs and then play for graduation which is rediculous in my opinion, but hey. that's just me.
aaand once again, it's past midnight and i'm not sleeping.
but i don't have to be up till 11, ish
which really means 12.
ok shutting up.
hope prom was amazing :D
~good night and sweet dreams
It's what we all want, in the end,
to be held, merely to be held,
to be kissed (not necessarily with the lips,
for every touching is a kind of kiss).
~Alden Nowlan
^ that's what i get for buying books of poetry at barnes & nobles, but i love it.
*hugs*
goodnight moon,
~me
so now i'm back at hartwick, and i have this stupid recital to sing at on sunday. it's not even that i don't like what we're supposed to sing, (i <3 come what may...yay for moulin rouge). but it's jess, who is driving me completely and totally nuts. thank god i don't have to deal with her for the opera, because i don't think i could stand her constant mispronounciation of words. plus just listening to her sing her recital stuff gives me a headache. she's doing this really cool vocalise thing by vaughn williams for voice and clarinet, but it would be sooo much better if she opened her mouth when she sang, and then maybe, just maybe she wouldn't sound like britney spears or ssome cheesey pop star. (someone also needs to tell her that it's a bad thing that her pronouncing Jesus in german can be confused for her singing "yay, zeus!" because that's what it sounds like. i can't even tell she's actually singing german half the time for that piece, and it drives me nuts). plus she thinks that me being her friend means that she can put down every other musician that she has a problem with and that won't bother me. well guess what?? it really does, because you're not little miss perfect, far from it. i'm sorry that a freshman soprano doesn't sound as good as a junior who's had 3 years of voice instruction does, but that doesn't mean she's a bitch, or inferior, or that she's not a musician. also, you complain about how she does the same repetoire as you? let me explain it for you. she has the same voice teacher as you, she sings the same part as you, guess what? you're going to do some of the same stuff. that doesn't mean she's trying to be you. least i hope not. also, insulting every other flutist doesn't make you better, and it really kind of irks me just a little, because everyone has there flaws, and we all perform differently, play differently, whatever. that doesn't make you better, just because someone sounds different then the way you do or you think they should sound. just let it go. seriously. it's getting old.
so next week is hell week for this stupid opera. i've just about had it with Purcell. i'm sure that, with a full orchestra and a quasi compitent choir, (not the soloists, for the most part they're ok but some parts of the chorus need serious help *cough* basses) it would be really fun. not that people in wind ensemble can't play the music, or it doesn't sound good, but there's just something about taking an orchestral score and reducing it to an ensemble of..however many we are...25. something just gets lost in the translation. it's great that we spend so much time perfecting the opera, but it would also be nice if, every once in awhile, just for fun we played something different. then maybe people would actually want to go to rehearsal, instead of just blowing it off. oh well, guess i'll just have to cope. oh, and the whole waiting around till saturday to play for graduation sucks hardcore. for 450 (which isn't that bad price wise) you could hire three really top notch musicians to play for graduation, and they might actually play something people want to hear. but no, hartwick has to be cheap and make the wind ensemble twiddle their thumbs and then play for graduation which is rediculous in my opinion, but hey. that's just me.
aaand once again, it's past midnight and i'm not sleeping.
but i don't have to be up till 11, ish
which really means 12.
ok shutting up.
hope prom was amazing :D
~good night and sweet dreams
It's what we all want, in the end,
to be held, merely to be held,
to be kissed (not necessarily with the lips,
for every touching is a kind of kiss).
~Alden Nowlan
^ that's what i get for buying books of poetry at barnes & nobles, but i love it.
*hugs*
goodnight moon,
~me