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And it all boils down to this.
I think. I have to go abroad. Maybe to the states.
Hopefully, immediately after I graduate.
I need to grow up.
Well, not really grow up. I'd like to think that I'm mature in some aspects. I'm exceedingly rational, and I manage myself well, in terms of time, skills, and logistics.
But I am far from what is required of me.
My growth is far from what is necessary and expected. Despite my density - I have an inkling of what I should be, and what is required.
I am so immature in so many aspects, and I need to distance myself from that source of immaturity. Actually it isn't so much immaturity. It's just something I find invigorating, something I enjoy - but doesn't really add to my growth nor to my development nor to my future. Maybe a few aspects, but not the general picture.
It's not holding me back. It's just that I choose it, when I shouldn't.
I need to exile myself for a year or more.
Not so much to figure shit out, but to get my head straight. Get myself prepared.
What I'm doing isn't fair to me, and I am not doing justinc
I think. I have to go abroad. Maybe to the states.
Hopefully, immediately after I graduate.
I need to grow up.
Well, not really grow up. I'd like to think that I'm mature in some aspects. I'm exceedingly rational, and I manage myself well, in terms of time, skills, and logistics.
But I am far from what is required of me.
My growth is far from what is necessary and expected. Despite my density - I have an inkling of what I should be, and what is required.
I am so immature in so many aspects, and I need to distance myself from that source of immaturity. Actually it isn't so much immaturity. It's just something I find invigorating, something I enjoy - but doesn't really add to my growth nor to my development nor to my future. Maybe a few aspects, but not the general picture.
It's not holding me back. It's just that I choose it, when I shouldn't.
I need to exile myself for a year or more.
Not so much to figure shit out, but to get my head straight. Get myself prepared.
What I'm doing isn't fair to me, and I am not doing justinc