the fuck stops here.
things are finally slowing down. we're almost fully settled into our new apartment--there are only a few pictures left to hang, but that's about all. it's looking more like a home, not some "weird hotel" as my roommate put it the other day. smaller than we're used to, but not as small as it could be. the neighborhood is also nice. very convenient to everything and not too crazy, not too dead. there are tons of restaurants, all of which look worth trying out. oh, and all of our windows face courtyards, so our apartment is quiet at all times. i love it.
i'm also no longer speaking to that boy i like. i thought things would be good, what with us now living relatively close to each other, but i was wrong. he had been acting kind of weird since i moved--maybe scared that i was going to hijack his life? who knows. it's too bad that it happened now that i'm finally in the city, but i suppose it's a good time to move on, what with everything else changing as well. it's upsetting, but in the past few days i've come to realize a lot of things, namely that i was holding on to something that didn't really exist. sure he could be nice, but i was getting used to settling for being second best to his friends and being treated like crap most of the time. i constantly made excuses for it, just because the good times were amazing. i have never done that before. at the time i didn't realize it, but here i was, letting some guy walk all over me. when the news got around this weekend, i got the incredulous "what took you so long???" from all my girl and guy friends alike. apparently everyone could see the situation for what it was except me.
yeah, i do miss him, but that will go away if i continue to just push forward. we aren't speaking, so it's relatively easy compared to breakups i've had in the past with all the emotionally charged arguments back and forth. being back in the 100% single world (apparently we "weren't dating" and i was "quasi-single" at the time...yeah that's a bullshit red flag if i've ever seen one) can be very tiring, but so far it's been liberating. i'm still not sure what i'm ready for, but i've been introduced to a cute boy who has already asked to see me again...maybe i'll give him a try.
happy mother's day to all you moms out there. and especially to mine!
i'm also no longer speaking to that boy i like. i thought things would be good, what with us now living relatively close to each other, but i was wrong. he had been acting kind of weird since i moved--maybe scared that i was going to hijack his life? who knows. it's too bad that it happened now that i'm finally in the city, but i suppose it's a good time to move on, what with everything else changing as well. it's upsetting, but in the past few days i've come to realize a lot of things, namely that i was holding on to something that didn't really exist. sure he could be nice, but i was getting used to settling for being second best to his friends and being treated like crap most of the time. i constantly made excuses for it, just because the good times were amazing. i have never done that before. at the time i didn't realize it, but here i was, letting some guy walk all over me. when the news got around this weekend, i got the incredulous "what took you so long???" from all my girl and guy friends alike. apparently everyone could see the situation for what it was except me.
yeah, i do miss him, but that will go away if i continue to just push forward. we aren't speaking, so it's relatively easy compared to breakups i've had in the past with all the emotionally charged arguments back and forth. being back in the 100% single world (apparently we "weren't dating" and i was "quasi-single" at the time...yeah that's a bullshit red flag if i've ever seen one) can be very tiring, but so far it's been liberating. i'm still not sure what i'm ready for, but i've been introduced to a cute boy who has already asked to see me again...maybe i'll give him a try.
happy mother's day to all you moms out there. and especially to mine!