your brain says=never ever i said=not now=talking upsideways
why is it that everyone around me including myself is exactly the same as they were last we spoke, last we met up.... how is it that not a single person has changed in the slightest bit..... never strayed from the normal pattern, the normal pattern that they and I and everyone else knows like clockwork.
Most of all, why cant I figure this shit out for myself, and do they wonder the same thing, or do they keep wonderering when IM going to be okay. it seems the latter, but then again when it comes to people im a sore pessimist. I know my train of thought has changed...... and I know I have changed I uess, it's tangible, I mean i still have some of the same peeves, and i'll always be over emotional and melodramatic, but a lot of the bullshit is gone, and as the smoke clears I find myself complletly and utterly alone... not like i felt any differant when surrounded by people. I'm a pro at feeling lifeless and alone at the sickest of parties, or the nicest of gatherings. They say psychopaths can't bond with anyone, but what about someone obsessed with bonding... can that be psycopothy as well? on a differant scale maybe, maybe on the borderline end of things, but I'm done with labels . I'm done looking through the DSMs for my diagnosis done trying to ut a name to it.... it's just life. It's living, and i can;t seem to get the point that it is what I make it.
the end.
Most of all, why cant I figure this shit out for myself, and do they wonder the same thing, or do they keep wonderering when IM going to be okay. it seems the latter, but then again when it comes to people im a sore pessimist. I know my train of thought has changed...... and I know I have changed I uess, it's tangible, I mean i still have some of the same peeves, and i'll always be over emotional and melodramatic, but a lot of the bullshit is gone, and as the smoke clears I find myself complletly and utterly alone... not like i felt any differant when surrounded by people. I'm a pro at feeling lifeless and alone at the sickest of parties, or the nicest of gatherings. They say psychopaths can't bond with anyone, but what about someone obsessed with bonding... can that be psycopothy as well? on a differant scale maybe, maybe on the borderline end of things, but I'm done with labels . I'm done looking through the DSMs for my diagnosis done trying to ut a name to it.... it's just life. It's living, and i can;t seem to get the point that it is what I make it.
the end.