fuck me.
i give up and i admit that i'm an asshole.
i dont mean to take out my issues on you. i know you could use a shoulder like me to lean on right now, but i can't offer it without inflicting pain on you. so i guess i just have to deal with me first before i can be of any help to you at all. you don't deserve anything less than perfect. i could do better. i could treat you like the queen you deserve to be treated as. but i just can't right now. maybe these coming days will be what i need. i just can't treat you as wonderfully as i would like to. and im sorry. im tired of being sorry. so i'm going to do something about it.
this really isn't something i want.
but it's something i want to do to make me better for YOU.
and i can't help but be madly in love with you. that will never change.
"my words are cold and flat, and you deserve more than that."
i dont mean to take out my issues on you. i know you could use a shoulder like me to lean on right now, but i can't offer it without inflicting pain on you. so i guess i just have to deal with me first before i can be of any help to you at all. you don't deserve anything less than perfect. i could do better. i could treat you like the queen you deserve to be treated as. but i just can't right now. maybe these coming days will be what i need. i just can't treat you as wonderfully as i would like to. and im sorry. im tired of being sorry. so i'm going to do something about it.
this really isn't something i want.
but it's something i want to do to make me better for YOU.
and i can't help but be madly in love with you. that will never change.
"my words are cold and flat, and you deserve more than that."