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ahhhhhhhh too much fun. seriously yesterday was the most fun ive had in quite a while. saw kari and taryn at farmington then got my ear talked off by phet with shawn eating some grub at my work. then met shawn's boy toy and went to the cuttings to see vikki and dustin. so much fun. i woke up this morning with vikki's dog sadie on my feet and brooklyn laying half on my ass and half on the couch taking up the whole goddam thing. haha. i love that dog. and luckily the couch is at licking height so brooklyn woke me up a dozen times this morning. then i let them free and i hear they still haven't returned haha. last night i was sitting at the table while we all played scrabble..which i should have won but dustin had the z FUCK...but vikki was like you look so much like her. ahh i know she was just saying it but when i went to the cuttings right after she died her uncle had to leave cuz i looked too much like her. i love tlaking about her but i just get this knot in my stomach when vikki talks about her cuz i know it must hurt so much. but i do like vikki a lot...i used to think she hated me. but she called me this morning to wake me up so i wouldnt be late for work. she's awesome. and i was freaked out too cuz she left the door unlocked for me and shawn to come but like...while she was gone and before we got there someone called her cell from her house...and didnt say anyhting. she thought it was us...but no. and she still doesnt know who it was. freakkky.

so tomorrow shall be the last day i see shawn for a while. let's see if i can take it like a man.