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I wish you'd notice me the way you used to notice me, but neither of us are who we were back then. However, I still get excited when you look my way or mention my name. It's nice to be thought about every once in awhile.
Hesitation is so cumbersome. What ifs weigh me down and haunt me 24 hours a day; both in waking and dreams. I need to get out of my head and into my life.
Things have been very up and down lately. One day I'll be at the top of the world feeling fantastic and free. The next I'm being force fed bad news about the dead and the dying. A family friend killed himself last week. I feel like my life is a very badly written book; the author just kills everyone off the same way due to lack of imagination. It's so unreal to me. Luckily I have a few good friends that know when to talk and when to let me forget. Thank you.
I got kicked out of my online classes. I might be getting off probation early. I have some prospective roommates for next summer. Things are far from perfect, but they could be worse. I'm far from perfect. I could be a hell of a lot worse.
I think all philosophers did hallucinogens.