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Tell her not to go
I ain't holding on no more
Tell her nothing if not this
In 2006 I made a post that read as following:
I always say all I want is to get away
and so far I've had encouragement in this decision
and people willing to help me along.
what I really want is for you to ask me to stay.
(this isn't about Titusville this time)
Well, this time it is.
I do not want to go to the Virgin Islands. It is hotter there than it is here, fuck that. I don't like any of the majors that the school offers down there. I am TERRIBLE at emerging myself into unfamiliar groups so I'd never make any friends. However, my mom cares enough about me to want me there with her. Out of everyone that I told that I was going to leave, not a single person asked me to stay. No one even said that they were going to miss me. Only having one person in the Virgin Islands that cared for me was enough to convince me that I should go. Only having one person here that felt the same way would have been enough to convince me to stay, or at least stay near by. My mom left for the Virgin Islands this morning. She'll know by the end of the week if she is going to move their permanently. If everything works out I'll be gone after summer classes are over and I have my AA. However, if I happen to not turn in my college application for The Virgin Islands University on time I'll be forced to stay in Florida for two more years. You've got until April 20th to change my mind. Moving on...
Some movies (like some songs) never get old. Sometimes they remind you of a piece of your life or someone you know. Sometimes you just wish it did. Maybe it has nothing to do with anything, you enjoy it just because it is what it is. These are the movies that you enjoy just as much on your 20th viewing as you did on the 1st. Sometimes you enjoy it a little more every time you see it. Maybe you start noticing connections you never saw before or you find hidden meanings in every line. These are the movies (and songs) that make your day. Whether they make you cry or make you smile you're always glad that it helped you feel something and made you feel a little more human. Some of these movies are so dear to you that they feel like an old friend and maybe a best friend. They understand how you feel more than anyone else in the world and when everyone else is gone, moved on or away, you will always have that movie at home, waiting on the shelf for you to come home to it can wrap its arms around you and take you away.
I saw a lot of old faces this weekend. People I haven't seen in four or five years. It's weird to see everyone grown up. It's weird having Liam's old best friends circling around me, trying to pass me lines and cop a feel.
Aside from this depressing post and the fact that I am extremely sleep deprived I'm pretty happy. I've been singing a lot lately and winter break is on the horizon. I can't wait to spend a month wrapped up in a blanket watching a million holiday movies on my couch. Bing Crosby will swoon me this year just like every other, that sly dog.