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Derrick drunk and analyzing our floor:
Derrick: Zak? Man... he likes to dance.
Sohrab: What about me?
Derrick: Sohrab, you a smart man and you study a lot.
Me: What about me?
Derrick: Milan, you skinny; but you a gotta lot of heart to make up for it.
[pause]
Derrick: And you're one happy motherfucker.
Me: What are you talking about?
Derrick: You got everything you need. A good girlfriend, a job, good friends, and a nice school. You a happy little man with a lot of heart.
Sohrab: Who else...? Johnny?
Derrick: Johnny is a fucking prophet.
etc.
Derrick opened my eyes though... I do have everything I really need to be happy.
Maybe that's why later when I was talking to Johnny, he pointed out my unusual level of contentment.
I had never realized that I am content. I knew I was happy. But I am satisfied as well. And it's awesome to just chill for a second, and realize that if I could stop wanting material objects (which is hard for anyone, and my main want being money to pay for college) I am actually one of the luckiest people in the world. And every shitty moment, and every time I have been fucked over, is all worth the smile on my face now.
With said understanding I sleep.
Derrick: Zak? Man... he likes to dance.
Sohrab: What about me?
Derrick: Sohrab, you a smart man and you study a lot.
Me: What about me?
Derrick: Milan, you skinny; but you a gotta lot of heart to make up for it.
[pause]
Derrick: And you're one happy motherfucker.
Me: What are you talking about?
Derrick: You got everything you need. A good girlfriend, a job, good friends, and a nice school. You a happy little man with a lot of heart.
Sohrab: Who else...? Johnny?
Derrick: Johnny is a fucking prophet.
etc.
Derrick opened my eyes though... I do have everything I really need to be happy.
Maybe that's why later when I was talking to Johnny, he pointed out my unusual level of contentment.
I had never realized that I am content. I knew I was happy. But I am satisfied as well. And it's awesome to just chill for a second, and realize that if I could stop wanting material objects (which is hard for anyone, and my main want being money to pay for college) I am actually one of the luckiest people in the world. And every shitty moment, and every time I have been fucked over, is all worth the smile on my face now.
With said understanding I sleep.