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Things haven't exactly started to look up but they will. Mike and I are moving again. This will make it the third time in the two and a half years we've been together.
As for emotions right now I'm somewhat numb, not to Mike but just about to everything else. I'm jealous of what other people are doing/saying. Mostly doing, i want a house, i want to be able to have a bakery of my own and do the things i want to do. but I'm constantly being held back for one reason or another.
I'm tired of friends who call themselves friends but do nothing to indicate that they are a friend. I know that I'm also a hypocrite of this. I just don't feel connected to many people anymore and that makes me sad. My friends are awesome and i love them dearly but some times i don't feel like anyone really cares.
I just don't want to be constantly questioning if one person is being a friend or just acting friendly because they can.
I guess sometimes you cant continue to be as good of friends with someone you once were, and that makes me sad. It also makes me wonder if i cling on to people too much.
But alas, i am moving I wish it were into a house but that i cannot afford at the moment.
one day.
but not today.
As for emotions right now I'm somewhat numb, not to Mike but just about to everything else. I'm jealous of what other people are doing/saying. Mostly doing, i want a house, i want to be able to have a bakery of my own and do the things i want to do. but I'm constantly being held back for one reason or another.
I'm tired of friends who call themselves friends but do nothing to indicate that they are a friend. I know that I'm also a hypocrite of this. I just don't feel connected to many people anymore and that makes me sad. My friends are awesome and i love them dearly but some times i don't feel like anyone really cares.
I just don't want to be constantly questioning if one person is being a friend or just acting friendly because they can.
I guess sometimes you cant continue to be as good of friends with someone you once were, and that makes me sad. It also makes me wonder if i cling on to people too much.
But alas, i am moving I wish it were into a house but that i cannot afford at the moment.
one day.
but not today.