emo marie
my depression has now hit an all time low. I'm not certain of my future and who is in it.
Mike and i can't seem to get along.
I've pushed most of my friends away.
And i feel like i'm stupid or annoying when i try to make new friends.
what is a girl like me supposed to do when shes so far down and out it seems no one can help? I write/type. I feel like i can vent my feelings better this way. when im speaking i get clouded in emotion but when i write/type everything seems clear. except in this instance where i still have no idea what to do.
I feel like everyone i vent to is tried of hearing the same story over and over and over again. I simply dont know what to do and who to count on.
for the first time in years i feel completely lost.
I cant even seem to find the real me anymore, it all seems fake. fake attitude. fake grin.
Ive been praying for something to show me the way, a glimmer of hope. but it seems nothing has come up.
all that ive found is anger, fear, and sorrow.