Moving again...maybe. (double-posted)
It's basically the perfect storm of factors:
1. My parents purchased a new home in Waconda, IL, near Dad's new work. Since we're no longer in-the-middle-of-nowhere, the mortgage is now twice what that of the house in Champaign. At the same time, my mom will be leaving behind her part-time job. All of this adds up to...my parents definitely can't help me out financially.
2. I took a practice LIT GRE. 600. I will not get into the graduate schools with that score. I NEED at least a 650 to get my foot in the door...preferably a 700 if I want to be competitive. Half of the reason for this score is simply that I need to review grammar (which is incredibly hard...ever tried to find the main verb of a poem with 15 verbs?)...and I need to read on the Americans (I missed virtually all of those points). But even with a better grasp of grammar, and assuming I know my way around my countrymen....I'm still scoring under 650.
*sighs* I need to pour a lot more time into this. I can't do that while working full-time. Unfortunately, I can't pay my rent without working full-time. While Kaplan is willing to offer me a full-time job...I CAN'T take it prior to my GRE's (November 4th), and to some degree, I don't WANT to work those crazy hours even after I finish that test.
Basically, I can't live in San Jose--with the insane cost of living--without working full-time...and I can't work full-time and still have enough brain cells left to prepare for this test as I should.
This test has to be a priority...especially with my borderline verbal score. If I fuck up this test, the only school that MIGHT take me is Duke: most of the others won't even consider me without hitting 650.
In short, unless I can find a roomate whom I can stand (and who can stand me)...I need to leave this area. My parents are suggesting that I go home (which will NOT happen)...most likely, I'll follow Adrian to Buffalo...work part-time at THAT Kaplan center (which is much better staffed than we are)...and study my tail off.
*sighs*
God, I don't want to have to move again. I like it here...I like my friends here. I like knowing my way around here. I like the farmer's market. I like having a tailor that I can rely on. I really, really don't want to have to build things up from scratch again.
That, and...the prospect of moving in with Adrian while our relationship is rather ambiguous...is confusing. We get along pretty well right now...mostly because we're NOT actually dating. Much as I miss him, I was looking forward to figuring myself out...apart from him.
That said, he's the only roomate that I ever got along with, outside of Blythe (I'm 2 for 10 among roomates).
1. My parents purchased a new home in Waconda, IL, near Dad's new work. Since we're no longer in-the-middle-of-nowhere, the mortgage is now twice what that of the house in Champaign. At the same time, my mom will be leaving behind her part-time job. All of this adds up to...my parents definitely can't help me out financially.
2. I took a practice LIT GRE. 600. I will not get into the graduate schools with that score. I NEED at least a 650 to get my foot in the door...preferably a 700 if I want to be competitive. Half of the reason for this score is simply that I need to review grammar (which is incredibly hard...ever tried to find the main verb of a poem with 15 verbs?)...and I need to read on the Americans (I missed virtually all of those points). But even with a better grasp of grammar, and assuming I know my way around my countrymen....I'm still scoring under 650.
*sighs* I need to pour a lot more time into this. I can't do that while working full-time. Unfortunately, I can't pay my rent without working full-time. While Kaplan is willing to offer me a full-time job...I CAN'T take it prior to my GRE's (November 4th), and to some degree, I don't WANT to work those crazy hours even after I finish that test.
Basically, I can't live in San Jose--with the insane cost of living--without working full-time...and I can't work full-time and still have enough brain cells left to prepare for this test as I should.
This test has to be a priority...especially with my borderline verbal score. If I fuck up this test, the only school that MIGHT take me is Duke: most of the others won't even consider me without hitting 650.
In short, unless I can find a roomate whom I can stand (and who can stand me)...I need to leave this area. My parents are suggesting that I go home (which will NOT happen)...most likely, I'll follow Adrian to Buffalo...work part-time at THAT Kaplan center (which is much better staffed than we are)...and study my tail off.
*sighs*
God, I don't want to have to move again. I like it here...I like my friends here. I like knowing my way around here. I like the farmer's market. I like having a tailor that I can rely on. I really, really don't want to have to build things up from scratch again.
That, and...the prospect of moving in with Adrian while our relationship is rather ambiguous...is confusing. We get along pretty well right now...mostly because we're NOT actually dating. Much as I miss him, I was looking forward to figuring myself out...apart from him.
That said, he's the only roomate that I ever got along with, outside of Blythe (I'm 2 for 10 among roomates).