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Everything written below was written in the past. Every sentence still holds its meaning. 'Beyond 4' ever... Lets take a walk down memory lane...
(Dont bother reading if you can't finish)
vandalize the mind._
living life in a rib cage. wearing a mask, hiding my innerself. im cloaked within the corridors of my training institution.drained away and behind with a flustered expression on my face. thy bosom beats as thee vents the words of anything. still envisions us sitting on a noir bark, put on vast land. feeling a corpselike vibe within myself as i place my emotions in a jar. frozen when her soul passes by, but her body melts my ice. let loose. because. her hands are imprinted on my palms... forever
*24/02/03: Gr.9
i think i deserve an oscar.
i havent written anything on my page for quite a while now, and im sure most of you are dying to hear what little ponderings are going through my head. well right now, its relationships. yes, relationships. but not your average relationship with your parents, friends, teachers, schoolmates etc. etc., but the relationship you have for a significant other. you know, a special person in your life, that singles out all the people you know. your fine individual that you consider, "more than a friend". someone who stands out, of all the rest. the one who you keep, protect, treat. the one person you desire... thats right folks. lately, this is what i`ve been thinking about. but the question is, "you wanna know why?"
just after last summer, i was confused. i had just "healed" from a harsh breakup that would have probably been the saddest days of my life. i felt, i needed a break. a break from any nurturing i would have to give to a special person. i just didnt feel it was nescessary. i "didnt need". the breakup situation opened many backdoors, that helped me stop from dwelling. i was neutral. time passed and everything became fine, and i finally realized that it was only a phase, a phase of friendship..
but that didnt stop me. even then, i still hungered for affection... about two months passed, and december came. winter, what a wonderful season. days came with soft snow that fell gently onto the ground, without a sound being made. and days came where it didnt snow at all, with wet cement and long icicles that were assharp as needles.but one day, i came again. i reunited with a fantastic person. a person who i havent talked to in the longest time. someone whom i shared, great elementary memories. it had probably been 3-4 months since we actually talked. we just HAD to catch up on things, and SURELY, we did.
we had a long talk, reminiscing about our past, and trying to solve our problems that had kept us silent for the long period of time we hadnt talked with eachother. discussing our little moments we had, brought me watery eyes (but i hid it, im a man).we released ourselves, and brought back the word "together"... that night, i thought so deeply to myself. thinking why things went wrong, and things i could`ve done that would have prevented them from happening.but it was the past, so i didnt dwell.
weeks had passed, and through those weeks, we developed a, i would say, stronger friendship. it made me feel so good to know that together, we regained a friendship that almost ended. we had long conversation on msn, and countable chats on the phone. there was this one time where we talked on msn for a long time, while she wrote me the longest note she had ever written (that was sweeet). and another time on the phone. together we created our own fantasies, stories that revealed some of our romantic desires. again, we released ourselves and brought eachother closer (that night was breath taking). we had great talks, and times together (we also had this `early dissmisal day` that kind offlopped, but was still nice. ESPECIALLY THE `closing cermony`!). our times arethe best.
right now,we`re keeping it on easy street. on track, stable.and all this is what im thinking about right now. it all sums down to relationships. yeaaah, we got it all. sliiickness, togetherness. valentines day is also coming up, and i have someplans in store for her and i. its going to be sooo great! so this is it, for those who have wondered "why doesnt warren ever put any context on his page, rather than non-understandable photoshop thingys?".kerplank!
oh yeah, one more thing, this girl im talking about, shes my significant other...
- Warren
17/03/03
venting on the net cause its my turn.
i think its my turn to play. each day my feelings become more. the true feelings are still hidden from within. the near future awaits its welcoming. jumbled affections are going through my heart. could my 4 be Beyond? who am i too know.
its soul attached.
wow, i never knew what i was capable of. coming back from my reckless journey from `singlesome`, was a really good decision. during that time, i explored my innerself and got a chance toshow my affection the way iwouldhave meant to, with the help of my friend, romance. with romance, i`ve accomplished more than i thought i was capable of doing. it has helped me create moments that are `out of this world`. it changed my views as a person, and now everyone notices. i`ve experienced a great being, one whom i`ve shared these most precious moments with. she has been the lucky one, the one whom i`ve bared my great ability. our adoration goes way back, but now, it has enrichedand has become more (and how sweet it is). the feelings i have, have not only greatly affected my heart, but has strengthen me as a person. my feelings have guided my way to, maybe, the real me. but dont get me wrong, my mixed emotions have flustered me. the nights without the other is like being the only one on the face of the earth. troubled am i without the view of her presence. i long for her more when she is not of my appearance. its abnormal, because when i am at her sight, i take no advantage. i question myself, is there too much to say? why dont i do something? could i be shy? it seems as though im too overwhelmed, i Love to see her as much as i could.
Painting Sentences
this whole capability thing is really working out pretty well. i finallyknow we`re balanced. the urges are controlled, but in a good way. outings are fantastics. silence can be irritating, but the day works out well. slow jams are always being played. im still in that romance movie of mine. connection can be strange. the fantasies still come by. my stuttering and bothered mouth still takes effect, damm it bothers me. dreaming is still a past time. praying is my guide. ready am i. today. long journeys from markham. patience is a virtue. cookie jar cookies taste GOOD. bunk bed stars are always great. comforters are very comforting. `laid his arms upon her waist` the narrator said briefly. `lets keep this a secret` i said in my mind.the hands held, "The moment it happend, suddenly, i was in paradise..." my eyes were getting drowsy. after, we felt free. went `running through fields`. moon shone with stars. skys of blue red purple with mixture. `going home is always the weirdest part.` the wonderful days keep getting better and more...
`theres still hope for young Love`...
later on that night
noon is always a great time to getup.the day is always looked forward on. internet fussing is fun, especailly when your pulling all your hair out. her. made good plans. took the idea right out of my mind. to dine on chocolate is very tasty. testing my timing, because patience is a virtue. 4:20pm. made the sign of the cross. often, the `knock` is always heart pounding. earlier then expected. denim couches are cool. long chats. silent at times. hiram was our inspiration. settled on things. realized, and opened the doors. found out challenges. eye contact - accomplished. the room. internet is always funfilled, and also to kill valuable time. 2 minute nap i took. the bed was my home. urges took over me. the comforters are always comforting. `get into your places` onesaid. 8:00. the count down started. hold, held, touch, felt... closenesswas nescessary. drifted into paradise. cuban mansions are great. the audience was at awe. 8:30. music need to fill the air. but i made my own. tightly we held. little chats we talked. my whisper-message was begging. temptation fled away. body heat created steam (and how sweet it was). discussed the `rush`. decided there was none of such sort. cats took notice. 8:45. closer we came. each second came beyond better. corressing was included. the moment forshadowed our future. gently pecked the shoulders. 9:00. paranoia came over. fin. got ready. dazed we were. each had our sensual looks (how sexy it was). time for our goodbyes. thehugwas true. the kiss was jumbled, but satisfying. thy body became weak and disordered. i fled out the door. crashed the wall. sat on a snow bank. slowly went away.
pinched myself, it was a dream come true...
Conclusion: ha, i know. everythings obvious, but what the heck right? im tooopen. i show my weakness`. i give alot. ilike to show off. i just cant help it. im pretty much straight up, or atleast try to be. i try to make things comfortable. im your average modern boy in his teens. blame society. trying to give you space. but theres more to me that i dont even know of.
i just express the way i feel, thats all...
Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner
Thursday, March 13, 2003 11:43pm
ice dance. i woke up from a dream. my heart spoke the truth. sudden flash backs hovered my eyes. now i know. blurry vision made it clearer. could she be? it is time...
Friday, March 14, 2003 9:23am
woke up with a startle. ice dance. wrote a letter of devotion, to myself. kept going, never read through. true. my feelings were then tainted...
Saturday, March 15, 2003 10:14pm
special days come by, this is the best day yet. 3 times truely is a charm. she had it in her. floating. marked the date. finally.
its Kardinal Official.
im in a happy meal mood. :)
miss me, miss me, now you gotta kiss me...
Thursday, June 26th, 2003 6:20AM
Ariahna, Hakuna Matata
I had a bad dream, and my girlfriend comforted me. Slight tension came between us (literatly) the time before. But we pulled through with open arms. Theres nothing like being a big baby when your girlfriends around, guys...
Chances are, I probably have the best girlfriend in the world. eh, three months and eleven days (or well under 3 years) cant really determine anything like that, but I just got a gut feeling about this one. Well, you know me, I should be so sure about something like this. So far, we havent had any fights or any major arguments, and it seems like its going to stay that way for a long time. I know everything wont always be dandy-happy-go-lucky, but we`ll have our way. Ariahna has been the best partner yet. We havent been our FULL selves around eachother, but of course, time will take care of that (crazyness is bottled in). We like being an organized and a`tryourbesttobeperfect` kind of couple, it gets people jealous(haha).Our past is great, with very few downs, and it just gives us comfort that theres still more to discover and explore...
We are the only ones who know our story. And our story will continue on...
Happy 3 Months Ariahna!
01/06/02
¿Love?
HA! psh, Love. my ass. its all a shannanigan. conditional love that is. SOOO many relationships i see these days. are they all they all fake? or are they true? i dont know what to believe. are they showing off to the public when they kiss? do the girls want the attention that they have a boyfriend? are the guys in it just for "feels"? if you think looks are deceiveing, its more like relationships are deceiveing.
people dealing these days ask me "when do you think so-and-so and i should break up?" damm. do you guys actually plan it out? dont you think the opposite person may feel heart-broken if they found out they`ve been used? many say boyfriend and girlfriend relationships is just training for futher relationships or even marriage. at our time and age i think it is. but people dont want to think that the situation they`re in, wont last forever... in most cases, its like that.
hate it when people say they had 8 girlfriends/boyfriends. it just shows that you werent successful in your past relationships, and reckoning on another unsuccessful relationship. its kind of like the story, `boy who cried wolf`. your problems will just make a chain reaction.
all im trying to say is that, you cant really say you love someone at such a young age. but im also not saying that youhave tobe old to love. man, love all you want, feel free. go ahead, tell every girl/guy that you love them, but its not my fault if you get heart-broken. the more you love someone, the moreit will hurt when you break up... for all those skeptics out there who think you`ll never break up, chances are slim that you wont. realistically, you rarely ever see "high-school hunnies" make it intothe big leagues, marriage. you can, but it will take alot of trust, commitment, patience, sacrifice, and true-love...
broken-hearts. man, these are harsh. it hurts, it really does. you dont want these to happen. no one does. some people dont even get the chance to be in a relationship. im telling you you dont want this happening to you.
i myself havent been in any real relationship. im just a spectator that observes other people and thier "love" problems. you dont have to take my advice. i mean, im no therapist or some some doctor with a PH.D. all im saying is. do what is best for you. remember these are just my opinions. i dont think ill be in any relationships for a long time. all i know is that when im married, thats when i know for sure that im in-love. but the question is, am i writing all this because im not in a relationships myself? will i even use my own advice? am i just mad because i have no one to be in-love with? i dont even know myself. many may call me a hypacrite because i have a song dedicated to someone and i like a girl, but you see, im waiting. im patient, really patient. ill just wait and see what happends. just take care and... BLAH!
"when i fall in love, i hope the right person catches me" - me
15/06/02
Emo Forum starts @ 2:20AM Thursday July 4th, restless...
TIP: read slowly.
well... another one of my gayass "Emotional Forums" (as me and chris may recall). be prepared to be touched by my inner feelings and teared by my stories. again, i will be sharing the troubles and wants in my life. to read or not to read. if your just going to make fun of me or poke jokes then dont bother reading this. it would just be wasting your time and asianavenues time as well. and for those who think that this kind of act is a "pretty boy" thing or bauty mon styles, well this goes to you...EAT MY SHORTS! its not my fault i feel like doing this. anyways, here we go...
hmmm... where to start? my current mood right now would have to be lonely. yes, lonely, in girlfriend-boyfriend terms that is. you see, i havent been in any serious relationships lately, or even a relationship at all. yes, its true. i never really had a true girlfriend. i never had someone to gaze at the stars with, have small picnics at the beach, walk throughs forests, eat ice cream together, to venture on journys, just someone to hold... period. gosh, the many things we would do. it would be so romantic... the thing is, when will i find this girl. i want a girl now, a girl with the qualities that would fit mine. i have this girl in mind, but i feel she has no interest in me. *tear*
i remember the days when i thought girls had cooties and power rangers actually was better. "those were the days" as many would say. now i think of a girlfriend, as a puzzle peice in life. i guess the wanting of someone of theother sex, triggers in life for an important reason. why is it we havecrushes anyways? its probably Gods way of saying "Heres someone to make your life easier". im sure, for some people, they arent on easy street, butsoon enough, if they pull through, they`d be on they`re way to cloud nine! i hope thats how my life would be. oh the possiblities...
remember that girl i told you about? yeah well, i use to love her off so badly; i use to dream about her every night (and i mean every night, truss), get mad butterflies in my stomach whenever i`d see her, and shower her with gifts. but now, at night, my mind is blank, hollow. i havent fully talked to her in a looong time, and gifts are now a speck of dust. you see my, i liked this girl for many reasons; shes the rarest fish in the sea i tell you. one of a kind. priceless. but the thing that struck me the most, was her eyes... yes ladies and gentlemen, her eyes. the one thing i usually look in a girl. she has the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen in my life... we went out one time, and had my first "date" (i know, pathetic eh?). i had the most romantic experience in my life (so far). she may think it was the littlest thing but i dont care. i loved it, even though we didnt eat fancy (nice one ***). through those happy months, i guess you can say i spoiled her. after a while we stopped talking. i felt sad. i guess i expected more to come so fast. i was wrong. ahhh...memories, memories, memories, i guess thats whats left of us both. but i think theres still a "tinker toil" of a chance that we may regain our relationship feather-weight title!
enough about her. and more about me! (yes!) just to tell you fems out there, im extremely hard to catch (yikes!). im not your average bear girls. im not quite effective with flirting, very annoyed by striving girls that like me, and dont even bother playing hard to get. i like long walks on the beach (haha! i always hearthis in movies), travelling to different places, frequently, lying down on the grass and watching the clouds float by, sitting on the roof while gazing at the stars, and slow dances. yes, im your real deal, ultra authentic, jeans. catch me, and you win i prize...
"killer: any last words credo...?"
im running out of ideas, and KINDA tired. im flattered that you got this far into reading my page. yeah, this is kind of like the "Final Thought" on jerry springer. well, i dont know why i always write these weird things on my page. sometimes i just feel like it, for some ironic reason. i have high expectations on the responses of this forum of mine (keep the notes coming people!). im anticipating that you guys learned "my side" of things (wtf?!?!). i know, i know, im sure i didnt touch any hearts or made anyone cry, as i said in the beginning, but im just to lazy to finish off. anyways, since there are no flashy graphics nor anything entertaining, feel free to play the games on my favourite links. i mean you guys are probably bored from all the black and white. well, this was all i can offer, my work is done here... peace
Finshed @ 4:30PM
There you have it. Hope it does you well...
-Warren Credo
(Dont bother reading if you can't finish)
vandalize the mind._
living life in a rib cage. wearing a mask, hiding my innerself. im cloaked within the corridors of my training institution.drained away and behind with a flustered expression on my face. thy bosom beats as thee vents the words of anything. still envisions us sitting on a noir bark, put on vast land. feeling a corpselike vibe within myself as i place my emotions in a jar. frozen when her soul passes by, but her body melts my ice. let loose. because. her hands are imprinted on my palms... forever
*24/02/03: Gr.9
i think i deserve an oscar.
i havent written anything on my page for quite a while now, and im sure most of you are dying to hear what little ponderings are going through my head. well right now, its relationships. yes, relationships. but not your average relationship with your parents, friends, teachers, schoolmates etc. etc., but the relationship you have for a significant other. you know, a special person in your life, that singles out all the people you know. your fine individual that you consider, "more than a friend". someone who stands out, of all the rest. the one who you keep, protect, treat. the one person you desire... thats right folks. lately, this is what i`ve been thinking about. but the question is, "you wanna know why?"
just after last summer, i was confused. i had just "healed" from a harsh breakup that would have probably been the saddest days of my life. i felt, i needed a break. a break from any nurturing i would have to give to a special person. i just didnt feel it was nescessary. i "didnt need". the breakup situation opened many backdoors, that helped me stop from dwelling. i was neutral. time passed and everything became fine, and i finally realized that it was only a phase, a phase of friendship..
but that didnt stop me. even then, i still hungered for affection... about two months passed, and december came. winter, what a wonderful season. days came with soft snow that fell gently onto the ground, without a sound being made. and days came where it didnt snow at all, with wet cement and long icicles that were assharp as needles.but one day, i came again. i reunited with a fantastic person. a person who i havent talked to in the longest time. someone whom i shared, great elementary memories. it had probably been 3-4 months since we actually talked. we just HAD to catch up on things, and SURELY, we did.
we had a long talk, reminiscing about our past, and trying to solve our problems that had kept us silent for the long period of time we hadnt talked with eachother. discussing our little moments we had, brought me watery eyes (but i hid it, im a man).we released ourselves, and brought back the word "together"... that night, i thought so deeply to myself. thinking why things went wrong, and things i could`ve done that would have prevented them from happening.but it was the past, so i didnt dwell.
weeks had passed, and through those weeks, we developed a, i would say, stronger friendship. it made me feel so good to know that together, we regained a friendship that almost ended. we had long conversation on msn, and countable chats on the phone. there was this one time where we talked on msn for a long time, while she wrote me the longest note she had ever written (that was sweeet). and another time on the phone. together we created our own fantasies, stories that revealed some of our romantic desires. again, we released ourselves and brought eachother closer (that night was breath taking). we had great talks, and times together (we also had this `early dissmisal day` that kind offlopped, but was still nice. ESPECIALLY THE `closing cermony`!). our times arethe best.
right now,we`re keeping it on easy street. on track, stable.and all this is what im thinking about right now. it all sums down to relationships. yeaaah, we got it all. sliiickness, togetherness. valentines day is also coming up, and i have someplans in store for her and i. its going to be sooo great! so this is it, for those who have wondered "why doesnt warren ever put any context on his page, rather than non-understandable photoshop thingys?".kerplank!
oh yeah, one more thing, this girl im talking about, shes my significant other...
- Warren
17/03/03
venting on the net cause its my turn.
i think its my turn to play. each day my feelings become more. the true feelings are still hidden from within. the near future awaits its welcoming. jumbled affections are going through my heart. could my 4 be Beyond? who am i too know.
its soul attached.
wow, i never knew what i was capable of. coming back from my reckless journey from `singlesome`, was a really good decision. during that time, i explored my innerself and got a chance toshow my affection the way iwouldhave meant to, with the help of my friend, romance. with romance, i`ve accomplished more than i thought i was capable of doing. it has helped me create moments that are `out of this world`. it changed my views as a person, and now everyone notices. i`ve experienced a great being, one whom i`ve shared these most precious moments with. she has been the lucky one, the one whom i`ve bared my great ability. our adoration goes way back, but now, it has enrichedand has become more (and how sweet it is). the feelings i have, have not only greatly affected my heart, but has strengthen me as a person. my feelings have guided my way to, maybe, the real me. but dont get me wrong, my mixed emotions have flustered me. the nights without the other is like being the only one on the face of the earth. troubled am i without the view of her presence. i long for her more when she is not of my appearance. its abnormal, because when i am at her sight, i take no advantage. i question myself, is there too much to say? why dont i do something? could i be shy? it seems as though im too overwhelmed, i Love to see her as much as i could.
Painting Sentences
this whole capability thing is really working out pretty well. i finallyknow we`re balanced. the urges are controlled, but in a good way. outings are fantastics. silence can be irritating, but the day works out well. slow jams are always being played. im still in that romance movie of mine. connection can be strange. the fantasies still come by. my stuttering and bothered mouth still takes effect, damm it bothers me. dreaming is still a past time. praying is my guide. ready am i. today. long journeys from markham. patience is a virtue. cookie jar cookies taste GOOD. bunk bed stars are always great. comforters are very comforting. `laid his arms upon her waist` the narrator said briefly. `lets keep this a secret` i said in my mind.the hands held, "The moment it happend, suddenly, i was in paradise..." my eyes were getting drowsy. after, we felt free. went `running through fields`. moon shone with stars. skys of blue red purple with mixture. `going home is always the weirdest part.` the wonderful days keep getting better and more...
`theres still hope for young Love`...
later on that night
noon is always a great time to getup.the day is always looked forward on. internet fussing is fun, especailly when your pulling all your hair out. her. made good plans. took the idea right out of my mind. to dine on chocolate is very tasty. testing my timing, because patience is a virtue. 4:20pm. made the sign of the cross. often, the `knock` is always heart pounding. earlier then expected. denim couches are cool. long chats. silent at times. hiram was our inspiration. settled on things. realized, and opened the doors. found out challenges. eye contact - accomplished. the room. internet is always funfilled, and also to kill valuable time. 2 minute nap i took. the bed was my home. urges took over me. the comforters are always comforting. `get into your places` onesaid. 8:00. the count down started. hold, held, touch, felt... closenesswas nescessary. drifted into paradise. cuban mansions are great. the audience was at awe. 8:30. music need to fill the air. but i made my own. tightly we held. little chats we talked. my whisper-message was begging. temptation fled away. body heat created steam (and how sweet it was). discussed the `rush`. decided there was none of such sort. cats took notice. 8:45. closer we came. each second came beyond better. corressing was included. the moment forshadowed our future. gently pecked the shoulders. 9:00. paranoia came over. fin. got ready. dazed we were. each had our sensual looks (how sexy it was). time for our goodbyes. thehugwas true. the kiss was jumbled, but satisfying. thy body became weak and disordered. i fled out the door. crashed the wall. sat on a snow bank. slowly went away.
pinched myself, it was a dream come true...
Conclusion: ha, i know. everythings obvious, but what the heck right? im tooopen. i show my weakness`. i give alot. ilike to show off. i just cant help it. im pretty much straight up, or atleast try to be. i try to make things comfortable. im your average modern boy in his teens. blame society. trying to give you space. but theres more to me that i dont even know of.
i just express the way i feel, thats all...
Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner
Thursday, March 13, 2003 11:43pm
ice dance. i woke up from a dream. my heart spoke the truth. sudden flash backs hovered my eyes. now i know. blurry vision made it clearer. could she be? it is time...
Friday, March 14, 2003 9:23am
woke up with a startle. ice dance. wrote a letter of devotion, to myself. kept going, never read through. true. my feelings were then tainted...
Saturday, March 15, 2003 10:14pm
special days come by, this is the best day yet. 3 times truely is a charm. she had it in her. floating. marked the date. finally.
its Kardinal Official.
im in a happy meal mood. :)
miss me, miss me, now you gotta kiss me...
Thursday, June 26th, 2003 6:20AM
Ariahna, Hakuna Matata
I had a bad dream, and my girlfriend comforted me. Slight tension came between us (literatly) the time before. But we pulled through with open arms. Theres nothing like being a big baby when your girlfriends around, guys...
Chances are, I probably have the best girlfriend in the world. eh, three months and eleven days (or well under 3 years) cant really determine anything like that, but I just got a gut feeling about this one. Well, you know me, I should be so sure about something like this. So far, we havent had any fights or any major arguments, and it seems like its going to stay that way for a long time. I know everything wont always be dandy-happy-go-lucky, but we`ll have our way. Ariahna has been the best partner yet. We havent been our FULL selves around eachother, but of course, time will take care of that (crazyness is bottled in). We like being an organized and a`tryourbesttobeperfect` kind of couple, it gets people jealous(haha).Our past is great, with very few downs, and it just gives us comfort that theres still more to discover and explore...
We are the only ones who know our story. And our story will continue on...
Happy 3 Months Ariahna!
01/06/02
¿Love?
HA! psh, Love. my ass. its all a shannanigan. conditional love that is. SOOO many relationships i see these days. are they all they all fake? or are they true? i dont know what to believe. are they showing off to the public when they kiss? do the girls want the attention that they have a boyfriend? are the guys in it just for "feels"? if you think looks are deceiveing, its more like relationships are deceiveing.
people dealing these days ask me "when do you think so-and-so and i should break up?" damm. do you guys actually plan it out? dont you think the opposite person may feel heart-broken if they found out they`ve been used? many say boyfriend and girlfriend relationships is just training for futher relationships or even marriage. at our time and age i think it is. but people dont want to think that the situation they`re in, wont last forever... in most cases, its like that.
hate it when people say they had 8 girlfriends/boyfriends. it just shows that you werent successful in your past relationships, and reckoning on another unsuccessful relationship. its kind of like the story, `boy who cried wolf`. your problems will just make a chain reaction.
all im trying to say is that, you cant really say you love someone at such a young age. but im also not saying that youhave tobe old to love. man, love all you want, feel free. go ahead, tell every girl/guy that you love them, but its not my fault if you get heart-broken. the more you love someone, the moreit will hurt when you break up... for all those skeptics out there who think you`ll never break up, chances are slim that you wont. realistically, you rarely ever see "high-school hunnies" make it intothe big leagues, marriage. you can, but it will take alot of trust, commitment, patience, sacrifice, and true-love...
broken-hearts. man, these are harsh. it hurts, it really does. you dont want these to happen. no one does. some people dont even get the chance to be in a relationship. im telling you you dont want this happening to you.
i myself havent been in any real relationship. im just a spectator that observes other people and thier "love" problems. you dont have to take my advice. i mean, im no therapist or some some doctor with a PH.D. all im saying is. do what is best for you. remember these are just my opinions. i dont think ill be in any relationships for a long time. all i know is that when im married, thats when i know for sure that im in-love. but the question is, am i writing all this because im not in a relationships myself? will i even use my own advice? am i just mad because i have no one to be in-love with? i dont even know myself. many may call me a hypacrite because i have a song dedicated to someone and i like a girl, but you see, im waiting. im patient, really patient. ill just wait and see what happends. just take care and... BLAH!
"when i fall in love, i hope the right person catches me" - me
15/06/02
Emo Forum starts @ 2:20AM Thursday July 4th, restless...
TIP: read slowly.
well... another one of my gayass "Emotional Forums" (as me and chris may recall). be prepared to be touched by my inner feelings and teared by my stories. again, i will be sharing the troubles and wants in my life. to read or not to read. if your just going to make fun of me or poke jokes then dont bother reading this. it would just be wasting your time and asianavenues time as well. and for those who think that this kind of act is a "pretty boy" thing or bauty mon styles, well this goes to you...EAT MY SHORTS! its not my fault i feel like doing this. anyways, here we go...
hmmm... where to start? my current mood right now would have to be lonely. yes, lonely, in girlfriend-boyfriend terms that is. you see, i havent been in any serious relationships lately, or even a relationship at all. yes, its true. i never really had a true girlfriend. i never had someone to gaze at the stars with, have small picnics at the beach, walk throughs forests, eat ice cream together, to venture on journys, just someone to hold... period. gosh, the many things we would do. it would be so romantic... the thing is, when will i find this girl. i want a girl now, a girl with the qualities that would fit mine. i have this girl in mind, but i feel she has no interest in me. *tear*
i remember the days when i thought girls had cooties and power rangers actually was better. "those were the days" as many would say. now i think of a girlfriend, as a puzzle peice in life. i guess the wanting of someone of theother sex, triggers in life for an important reason. why is it we havecrushes anyways? its probably Gods way of saying "Heres someone to make your life easier". im sure, for some people, they arent on easy street, butsoon enough, if they pull through, they`d be on they`re way to cloud nine! i hope thats how my life would be. oh the possiblities...
remember that girl i told you about? yeah well, i use to love her off so badly; i use to dream about her every night (and i mean every night, truss), get mad butterflies in my stomach whenever i`d see her, and shower her with gifts. but now, at night, my mind is blank, hollow. i havent fully talked to her in a looong time, and gifts are now a speck of dust. you see my, i liked this girl for many reasons; shes the rarest fish in the sea i tell you. one of a kind. priceless. but the thing that struck me the most, was her eyes... yes ladies and gentlemen, her eyes. the one thing i usually look in a girl. she has the most beautiful eyes i have ever seen in my life... we went out one time, and had my first "date" (i know, pathetic eh?). i had the most romantic experience in my life (so far). she may think it was the littlest thing but i dont care. i loved it, even though we didnt eat fancy (nice one ***). through those happy months, i guess you can say i spoiled her. after a while we stopped talking. i felt sad. i guess i expected more to come so fast. i was wrong. ahhh...memories, memories, memories, i guess thats whats left of us both. but i think theres still a "tinker toil" of a chance that we may regain our relationship feather-weight title!
enough about her. and more about me! (yes!) just to tell you fems out there, im extremely hard to catch (yikes!). im not your average bear girls. im not quite effective with flirting, very annoyed by striving girls that like me, and dont even bother playing hard to get. i like long walks on the beach (haha! i always hearthis in movies), travelling to different places, frequently, lying down on the grass and watching the clouds float by, sitting on the roof while gazing at the stars, and slow dances. yes, im your real deal, ultra authentic, jeans. catch me, and you win i prize...
"killer: any last words credo...?"
im running out of ideas, and KINDA tired. im flattered that you got this far into reading my page. yeah, this is kind of like the "Final Thought" on jerry springer. well, i dont know why i always write these weird things on my page. sometimes i just feel like it, for some ironic reason. i have high expectations on the responses of this forum of mine (keep the notes coming people!). im anticipating that you guys learned "my side" of things (wtf?!?!). i know, i know, im sure i didnt touch any hearts or made anyone cry, as i said in the beginning, but im just to lazy to finish off. anyways, since there are no flashy graphics nor anything entertaining, feel free to play the games on my favourite links. i mean you guys are probably bored from all the black and white. well, this was all i can offer, my work is done here... peace
Finshed @ 4:30PM
There you have it. Hope it does you well...
-Warren Credo