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i can't believe i did it. i really did. im crying right now cuz its really over. i told him that i still had feelings for him and that things would never change, that we can never just be friends, that it wasn't fair to me. he told me that he can't give me what i want. so we said goodnight and he watched me walk to the door and that was it. this really hurts, in more ways that i thought. i still don't know why and i guess i never will. hopefully this is for the better and i can become a better woman because of it. all i want to do is cry.