Ooops
...it's been a while!
So, quick update since it's great weather outside and I really shouldn't be sitting in front of the comp all day.
I am done with my exams. I am now officially a Health Care Administrator. Yay... or something. Gonna be taking Chemistry, Physics and Maths this fall, and then, Bio analysis I guess.
I moved to my own place in Malmö. Finally. Just to find that I spend more and more time at R's place. But at least I like it.
Linus moved to my parents' house for a while, since my neighbours complained about him "screaming" all the time. That's plain b/s, at least the "all the time"-part.
I think he likes Ma's cooking, he's gained more than 2 lbs since a month back.
I've been doing pretty OK, although I find myself once again on the downward spiral.
In my head, echoing with every heartbeat, is the thought "help me get away from myself". It's all I can do to keep from starting cutting again. I know he would kill me if I did, so I just push my nails harder into my palms and bite my cheeks. I will not, repeat NOT, fall this time. Inside, I ache so bad I feel like I'm gonna crack any second. I don't know why. Maybe I should go up on my meds, maybe it's the new meds, maybe it's just me.