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[witheredblade]

...I owe some answers... Haseo, you will know where to find me.

For now, I want to be alone... If anyone needs me... This once, I'm afraid I'll have to decline.

Something inside of me has begun to wilt once again.

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[heinesangel]

Kaoru...?

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[witheredblade]

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Sorry. Some of the things I managed to say yesterday... I just wish I could erase them.

Since I can't, I've chosen to be alone for now.

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[heinesangel]

The mist... Were you hurt by it?

I think, I... I know someone who is probably feeling very similar to you now. I couldn't help him then, because... all I could do was lie.

Isn't there anything I can do to help either of you now? Please, let me try.

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[witheredblade]

...I... Hurt Ryou. I hurt a friendship that I hold very dear...

I think.. I hurt myself, more than anything.

I don't think anyone can fix this. Honestly... It would be preferable to vanish, now.

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[heinesangel]

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It's not your fault, Kaoru... How could it be? I know that you would...never want that for Ryou or yourself.

[A long pause follows.]

I...

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[heinesangel]

It's hard to erase things... And even if you can, then it's hard to live without regrets, right? Something else might have been lost. Something important.

I... don't think I can ever really understand how deeply you are hurting, Kaoru. That's the truth.

But... I know that this is something that can be fixed. Not like me. Please... don't say things like that. I don't think I could stand to lose anyone else.

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[witheredblade]

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...If Ryou will ever forgive me... I think I can be happy again. But, as things are...

I did make a promise. I don't intend to go anywhere, even if he hates me now.

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[heinesangel]

Kaoru... Before, I was forced to say things that I didn't mean... I couldn't stop. I don't know if it was the same for you, or if you could only tell the truth... even if it ended up hurting people. Hikaru was very mean that way, actually. But maybe Haseo was the same way.

Do you really know if he hates you?

Even then, would you really believe that he would truly feel that way about you? It's... not like you. I know that you're a stronger person than you think you are.

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[witheredblade]

He was lying, yes.

But he said... "I'm not mad at you. There's nothing to forgive. It's fine."

...I don't think he hates me. He's just mad. I owe him answers. I've lied to him so much...

[Text] Oh no! Clever strategy falling through!

[heinesangel]

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Then... if that's what you feel that you can do to show how sorry you really are for what's happened, then I'm sure it will mean something to Ryou.

Even you don't truly believe that he hates you for this, do you...? I think that says something.

D: D: D: HURRY. FIX IT.

[witheredblade]

... All the things I'd hidden from him... Everything came out. I can't prove that I'm sorry... I can't. Because I'm not sorry I'd lied about it. It should have remained a secret.

If he hated me, it wouldn't be like him... I irritate him often, but he never let that get to him enough to earn his hatred.

[Text] Dive, dive! Whoop, whoop!

[heinesangel]

But... the things that you kept hidden from him were kept secret for an important reason, right? You... never would have told him if you knew that they would hurt in some way, would you? ...like this.

No one would want to do things to hurt the people they care about. You're not a bad person for choosing to do what you did, Kaoru... You're intentions were never bad.

Then why should this be any different? If... if you're so worried about facing Ryou by yourself, then I can be there with you. You won't have to be scared if I'm there.

[witheredblade]

I shouldn't have told him because it wasn't my place. I shouldn't have known at all... And I knew he would be happier not knowing.

...It's different because I know that this won't be easily forgiven. I.. I don't think you should be there... He deserves to know about his past, and I'll tell him, but... It would probably be best if no one else knew.

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[heinesangel]

It wasn't you place...? ...oh.

I understand. It's okay. But... Is this really all I can do for the two of you right now? I don't think I'd want to see either of you be unhappy...

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[witheredblade]

I came across the secret by chance... The ones who hid it from him in the first place should have been the ones to tell him.

...Love can overcome any trial. He and I will be fine eventually.

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[heinesangel]

Then you couldn't help that... or what happened to all of us. I know how you feel about it now. It really isn't your fault.

... You can sound a little happier about that, Kaoru.