as my imagination runs rampant, burning and tarnishing as it goes...
part of me is really fighting me doing this. im not sure just what part, but i am going to do this anywise. I really am terrible at updating this thing during the summer, but i am really busy, ok?
whatev. i am writing that like i have a captive audience reading this, not just the casual glancer/ checker-upper that i typically get. so yea.
Work has been going well. They asked me to perform in the Kitty's show at the end of this week, so i am frantically learning the dance numbers. Although i do feel a lot better about them, all those dance classes at school and such are paying off. Bang a rang. Now only if i could loose some weight to make myself look more like a dancer, we would be in business. Frustrating, but i think it will be ok. Water Park night at the park last night for the employee's a whole bunch of fun as usual. Frustrating though. I thought dating a girl at work would be fun, like seeing each other on breaks and stuff and all that, but it has proved difficult. Megan wants to keep a very professional relationship while at work, (which i respect and want as well), but the problem is, this is overflowing into social events with work people. It isnt a terrible thing, it just leaves me a feeling of ...isolation at times. Looking at it though, it really isnt that big of a deal, it is just that i miss spending time with her, which makes me a little bit oversensitive to things like that. whatever.
There i go again, just brushing things off.
Talked with Bryan tonight for the first time in a long while. It was nice, and made me a bit more excited to go back to school. Part of me is worried about school, both going there and leaving here.
Not only am i dreading not being with Megan, i am just worried about moving to Jamestown. I overall have a really good feeling about the whole thing, but i just want Zachary to be ok. I had to do the exact thing that he is about to go through, and it is not always pretty. I am going to miss my room in this house...a lot. I dont know what it is about this room, it just fits me so well, i just feel like myself in here, this is where i do my best thinking and my best relaxing. That sounds materialistic and shallow, but i will miss this room a ton.
I just need to chill out. Take some deep breaths and just let it be.
whatev. i am writing that like i have a captive audience reading this, not just the casual glancer/ checker-upper that i typically get. so yea.
Work has been going well. They asked me to perform in the Kitty's show at the end of this week, so i am frantically learning the dance numbers. Although i do feel a lot better about them, all those dance classes at school and such are paying off. Bang a rang. Now only if i could loose some weight to make myself look more like a dancer, we would be in business. Frustrating, but i think it will be ok. Water Park night at the park last night for the employee's a whole bunch of fun as usual. Frustrating though. I thought dating a girl at work would be fun, like seeing each other on breaks and stuff and all that, but it has proved difficult. Megan wants to keep a very professional relationship while at work, (which i respect and want as well), but the problem is, this is overflowing into social events with work people. It isnt a terrible thing, it just leaves me a feeling of ...isolation at times. Looking at it though, it really isnt that big of a deal, it is just that i miss spending time with her, which makes me a little bit oversensitive to things like that. whatever.
There i go again, just brushing things off.
Talked with Bryan tonight for the first time in a long while. It was nice, and made me a bit more excited to go back to school. Part of me is worried about school, both going there and leaving here.
Not only am i dreading not being with Megan, i am just worried about moving to Jamestown. I overall have a really good feeling about the whole thing, but i just want Zachary to be ok. I had to do the exact thing that he is about to go through, and it is not always pretty. I am going to miss my room in this house...a lot. I dont know what it is about this room, it just fits me so well, i just feel like myself in here, this is where i do my best thinking and my best relaxing. That sounds materialistic and shallow, but i will miss this room a ton.
I just need to chill out. Take some deep breaths and just let it be.