what the fuck ever.
people want to be quick to call themselves friends to me. "what the fuck ever." i think before people want to tell me they are my friends they need to think about what responsibilities come along with that shit. obviously people are completely ignorant to the fact that people other than themselves have feelings that should be respected even if that involves a bit of suffereing themselves. friendship goes two ways. the loss of everyone i've known that was close to me while growing up is a hard concept to deal with everyday, and no one else i know can even come close to understanding that, however some people can take that shit into consideration before thinking that they are my friends because that just means im a bit more sensitive to certain situations, especially those "relationship" related, among numerous other things. anyway, i've had enough of that shit to last me a life time and i don't intend on having to deal with it anymore than i have to, and unfortunately for them i don't have to. i might be pretentious and shallow, but im not an asshole all the time. it sucks that things bother me the way that they do, but unfortunately for me i am high maintanence due to situations i was placed in and went through while coming of age. despite, i have people who do honestly care for me and *everything* is done by them for me so that i know they care, and i know i do everything for them in return. for those who can not take the responsibility on completely, i regret to be the first to inform, but i no longer care. if someone doesn't understand me because they can't or don't want to then i can't be their friend, i'll more than willingly be a friendly acquaintance, but i'll be damned if im going to be their "friend." i will not take responsibilities for anyone that won't whole heartedly take them from me.
...as for "relationships" people have proven to me that they can't understand me either. it sucks but oh fucking well. sincerest appologies for the vulgarity content of this particular post and the ranting and raving of me. im 99% of the time extremely mellow and i don't complain. i don't yell. i keep to myself. unfortunately right now, im really drunk and i don't give a shit. and when i sober up... i think ill be a different person permenentally and just not give a shit anymore. if you can't understand me, you won't understand me, you won't take responsibility, you won't take initiative, you're imma-fucking-ture, you can't grasp the fact that what you do is spiteful and extremely annoying and heart breaking, then don't fucking expect me to return any emotion aside from me being a complete fucking dick head. in fact, if you want to think that you do all the work, that i do nothing, that the world revolves around you, then you're fucking wrong. the world revolves around me because i am the greatest human being that has ever graced the face of the fucking earth. give or take a few of my *real* friends. anyway this concludes the drunken rantings of gene for now. till the next time. im pissed the fuck off. x fucking o.
...as for "relationships" people have proven to me that they can't understand me either. it sucks but oh fucking well. sincerest appologies for the vulgarity content of this particular post and the ranting and raving of me. im 99% of the time extremely mellow and i don't complain. i don't yell. i keep to myself. unfortunately right now, im really drunk and i don't give a shit. and when i sober up... i think ill be a different person permenentally and just not give a shit anymore. if you can't understand me, you won't understand me, you won't take responsibility, you won't take initiative, you're imma-fucking-ture, you can't grasp the fact that what you do is spiteful and extremely annoying and heart breaking, then don't fucking expect me to return any emotion aside from me being a complete fucking dick head. in fact, if you want to think that you do all the work, that i do nothing, that the world revolves around you, then you're fucking wrong. the world revolves around me because i am the greatest human being that has ever graced the face of the fucking earth. give or take a few of my *real* friends. anyway this concludes the drunken rantings of gene for now. till the next time. im pissed the fuck off. x fucking o.