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As much as I was falling apart six months ago, I felt more whole than I do now. Completley composed to the rest of the world- but I'm in shambles.
You know its a mistake before you even make it. You know its not the best way, but it feels like the only way.
This was not my decision. I did not ask for this. No, I did not have a choice. Do your morals allow you to sue your own mother, or stab your brother? I REFUSE. -- because what kind of person would I be?
I feel stronger being alone, I feel more confident without you. Is this how you intended it to be?
You can be happy without anything, as long as you accept it. You poor little boy. Suck up your pride and admit you need help. That you've been overfaced and overwhelmed-- and that you cannot handle it on your own.
Yes, it takes sacrifice. God, Life takes sacrifice.
This is not the way I wanted my life to start. Its not the easiest blockoff of which to dive. But I'm a strong swimmer. I'm a damn strong swimmer. And this is going to end with the placings I choose because I'm not going to let you, or god, or anyone pull me under.
Get over yourself and look at what you're doing. You're ruining yourself and us in this dire struggle to make everything look perfect to the world.
People are not as stupid as you think. I refuse to believe that if we cannot even convince ourselves, that they will believe us wholeheartedly.
Forget about your pride-- it will only get you so far, and that point was miles ago in the wrong direction.
PS: Maternity Clothes are HIDEOUS. Its a good thing I can only fit into a few slightly fashionable things, and I'll be able to wear cute winter clothes soon. Cute winter clothes in my size.
You know its a mistake before you even make it. You know its not the best way, but it feels like the only way.
This was not my decision. I did not ask for this. No, I did not have a choice. Do your morals allow you to sue your own mother, or stab your brother? I REFUSE. -- because what kind of person would I be?
I feel stronger being alone, I feel more confident without you. Is this how you intended it to be?
You can be happy without anything, as long as you accept it. You poor little boy. Suck up your pride and admit you need help. That you've been overfaced and overwhelmed-- and that you cannot handle it on your own.
Yes, it takes sacrifice. God, Life takes sacrifice.
This is not the way I wanted my life to start. Its not the easiest blockoff of which to dive. But I'm a strong swimmer. I'm a damn strong swimmer. And this is going to end with the placings I choose because I'm not going to let you, or god, or anyone pull me under.
Get over yourself and look at what you're doing. You're ruining yourself and us in this dire struggle to make everything look perfect to the world.
People are not as stupid as you think. I refuse to believe that if we cannot even convince ourselves, that they will believe us wholeheartedly.
Forget about your pride-- it will only get you so far, and that point was miles ago in the wrong direction.
PS: Maternity Clothes are HIDEOUS. Its a good thing I can only fit into a few slightly fashionable things, and I'll be able to wear cute winter clothes soon. Cute winter clothes in my size.