burn out; not fade away.

[withaknilikeit]

well, it has definately been a weird past couple of weeks. yeah, it's been fun, but it's obvious to myself that something is missing.

i've got mixed feelings about this "ordeal" with julie and katie. in some ways, i miss them whenever i walk into my room and see pictures of them all over my walls, and see pictures of them next to my alarm clock when i wake up, but in other ways i'm angry. i'm angry because the pictures of me they have, are probably already burned or thrown away. and i'm angry because lately i've been thinking that they probably don't even realize i'm not there whenever they're all hanging out, but if that's the case i guess i'm just glad it's all over now before it got worse. it's weird seeing them in the halls, we act like we've never even known each other or we're just some person we hung out with once and while. it scares me to know these people know more about me than my family, and makes me worry, especially when they're talking about those things behind my back.

i just want exams to be over, for winter break to be here, or, even better, for it to be summer. already.