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so i definetely want to move back home...
its not that i dont like living at the mounces, its just that it- well it isnt home to me.
home is my messy apartment with my mom and brothers
home is fighting constantly with my mom and brothers
home is not knowing if you are going to be able to pay the cable bill nextmonth
THATS HOME TO ME.....
and yea i know how i always talk about it being stressful, but i just want to go back. i dont care if nothing has changed. i miss my mom, ethan, aidan and yes even christian.
and i hate going back and forth, from the mounces to my moms...i mean it is my decision...but i just wanna stay home...for good.
i want to know my mom loves me still...and actually WANTS me back too.
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golly jeepers...
so today is almost over. ill prolly be at jens later tonight considering i have been there all week. its nice...her parents and brother and sister are gone. its just jen...and we can hang out and not have to worry about even DOING ANYTHING. we can do absolutely nothing if we want...and thats usually what we end up doing.
god i dont want her to move. shes like an older sister to me. but i know she needs to do this for herself....she HAS to. but im sure as hell gonna miss her.
so i think something is wrong with me....its like i never eat anymore. im never hungry. and when i do eat, i end up feeling really sick afterwards.
all i have eaten in the past 2 days is half a hamburger and a couple of waffle fries....thats it. i should be starving...but im not. when i am....and i cant eat anything i just ignore it and it eventually goes away...maybe im dying IONO
so kiel might have brain cancer. i found out last week. but yesterday he went to get an MRI and CATSCAN and XRAYS and all that shit. they didnt find anything in the xray, but he gets the other results today. yea we arent together anymore but i still care about him and he IS my friend and im worried about him.
but yea bells about to ring....
*muah*
<3Dani
so i definetely want to move back home...
its not that i dont like living at the mounces, its just that it- well it isnt home to me.
home is my messy apartment with my mom and brothers
home is fighting constantly with my mom and brothers
home is not knowing if you are going to be able to pay the cable bill nextmonth
THATS HOME TO ME.....
and yea i know how i always talk about it being stressful, but i just want to go back. i dont care if nothing has changed. i miss my mom, ethan, aidan and yes even christian.
and i hate going back and forth, from the mounces to my moms...i mean it is my decision...but i just wanna stay home...for good.
i want to know my mom loves me still...and actually WANTS me back too.
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golly jeepers...
so today is almost over. ill prolly be at jens later tonight considering i have been there all week. its nice...her parents and brother and sister are gone. its just jen...and we can hang out and not have to worry about even DOING ANYTHING. we can do absolutely nothing if we want...and thats usually what we end up doing.
god i dont want her to move. shes like an older sister to me. but i know she needs to do this for herself....she HAS to. but im sure as hell gonna miss her.
so i think something is wrong with me....its like i never eat anymore. im never hungry. and when i do eat, i end up feeling really sick afterwards.
all i have eaten in the past 2 days is half a hamburger and a couple of waffle fries....thats it. i should be starving...but im not. when i am....and i cant eat anything i just ignore it and it eventually goes away...maybe im dying IONO
so kiel might have brain cancer. i found out last week. but yesterday he went to get an MRI and CATSCAN and XRAYS and all that shit. they didnt find anything in the xray, but he gets the other results today. yea we arent together anymore but i still care about him and he IS my friend and im worried about him.
but yea bells about to ring....
*muah*
<3Dani