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so i defintely get out of school at 12:30 today. yay for me! jen told the people i had a dr appointment....but shhhh *i really dont*
i just didnt want to go to the assembly for the most part...
its homecoming weekend, and im not going. i planned on it, i got asked, i asked someone, i even had a dress....but i just dont think i want to go. yea last year homecoming was a blast but that was because i was with my friends.
i was with tabs, spencer, roxie, and lyzz. and it WAS fun.
i dont know i have just been thinking alot, about my old friends. the friends that were such a big part of my life at one point, but now have basically become nothing to me.
it kinda makes me sad...SOOO many times i have thought about emailing tabitha and just telling her that im sorry and i miss her and i love her...but i highly doubt that will ever happen. basically she hates me and wants nothing to do with me. but hey, she has a reason i guess. a few reasons.
its just weird, we used to be inseperable. everywhere tabs went, i was there and vice versa. now we dont even speak to eachother.
itslike i want to hate her...and just forget about her. but i cant. yea she pisses the fuck out of me sometimes, but that doesnt make me hate her.
right now, i just wish things were how they used to be. not that im nothappy. bc im the happiest i have been in ages, i just wish tabs could be here and be happy with me, i guess.
so.....i just needed to get that out. knowing me ill probably delete it in a few days when i realize how dumb i sound...but oh well.
<3<3<3
i just didnt want to go to the assembly for the most part...
its homecoming weekend, and im not going. i planned on it, i got asked, i asked someone, i even had a dress....but i just dont think i want to go. yea last year homecoming was a blast but that was because i was with my friends.
i was with tabs, spencer, roxie, and lyzz. and it WAS fun.
i dont know i have just been thinking alot, about my old friends. the friends that were such a big part of my life at one point, but now have basically become nothing to me.
it kinda makes me sad...SOOO many times i have thought about emailing tabitha and just telling her that im sorry and i miss her and i love her...but i highly doubt that will ever happen. basically she hates me and wants nothing to do with me. but hey, she has a reason i guess. a few reasons.
its just weird, we used to be inseperable. everywhere tabs went, i was there and vice versa. now we dont even speak to eachother.
itslike i want to hate her...and just forget about her. but i cant. yea she pisses the fuck out of me sometimes, but that doesnt make me hate her.
right now, i just wish things were how they used to be. not that im nothappy. bc im the happiest i have been in ages, i just wish tabs could be here and be happy with me, i guess.
so.....i just needed to get that out. knowing me ill probably delete it in a few days when i realize how dumb i sound...but oh well.
<3<3<3