give yourself away...
i'll wait for you.
twist of fate on a bed of nails he makes me wait and i wait without you.
with or without you, with or without you
you gave it all but i want more,
and i'm waiting for you.
IF YOU READ NOTHING OF MY JOURNAL READ THIS AND UNDERSTAND
explaination time i think.
i'm sorry my guilt is insane right now, i can't believe i could do this to someone so kind and loving and nice, and now all i want is to tell her and have her understand and see that she and i have to get the hell away from him.
the other him...the other him is great and that's another reason i feel so awful, that i have someone so loving and so great and so stable in my life and if i tell her i take that out of her life. so maybe it's best i let it run it's course without further interferance. i don't think it's my place to tell her, but maybe i have every right. the other him, he says i'm a changed person from who i was, he says that i really am...and he believes it. maybe i believe it to. i'm sure i wouldn't have thought about this before.
someone is still managing to get into my brain...i know that they are not good for me, dead end i think...i don't want to think i just gave up on him, but -shrugs- it's gone isn't it? wasn't it only then? i'm forcing myself to stop thinking about this one...the other him is to good, to sweet, to right for me to do this...i'm only looking at this one because i always try to destroy things right? right. my god i love chaos...or chaotic love.
love many
trust few
shitty advice...leaves no room for growth...do things your way.
twist of fate on a bed of nails he makes me wait and i wait without you.
with or without you, with or without you
you gave it all but i want more,
and i'm waiting for you.
IF YOU READ NOTHING OF MY JOURNAL READ THIS AND UNDERSTAND
explaination time i think.
i'm sorry my guilt is insane right now, i can't believe i could do this to someone so kind and loving and nice, and now all i want is to tell her and have her understand and see that she and i have to get the hell away from him.
the other him...the other him is great and that's another reason i feel so awful, that i have someone so loving and so great and so stable in my life and if i tell her i take that out of her life. so maybe it's best i let it run it's course without further interferance. i don't think it's my place to tell her, but maybe i have every right. the other him, he says i'm a changed person from who i was, he says that i really am...and he believes it. maybe i believe it to. i'm sure i wouldn't have thought about this before.
someone is still managing to get into my brain...i know that they are not good for me, dead end i think...i don't want to think i just gave up on him, but -shrugs- it's gone isn't it? wasn't it only then? i'm forcing myself to stop thinking about this one...the other him is to good, to sweet, to right for me to do this...i'm only looking at this one because i always try to destroy things right? right. my god i love chaos...or chaotic love.
love many
trust few
shitty advice...leaves no room for growth...do things your way.