OOC: Textbook Introspection
OOC Character Introspection Entry
Sadly, strangely even there have been many passages in The Psychology of Incarceration: A Distortion of the State of Belonging that have reminded me of Robin. I get it now that I've been in the class for a while. We each create or can be in situations that resemble the conditions of incarceration, which in turn will distort these traits that are necessary for us to be emotionally/mentally good. In that case, it's easy to tell why there's so much of this book that I can relate to him. Of all my characters, he best represents someone who's incarcerated or caged. Self created incarceration, but that hardly means it's immune to these distortions.
ANYWAY. I'm mostly doing this for my own frame of reference, because I don't want to write OMG ROBIN in this book. All the time.
"It was always easy to get into fights if you hated yourself. So what if you fought a guy bigger than you who could kick your ass? So what if you got stabbed with 007 in the back and never walked again? So what if someone broke your nose in a fight? You were ugly anyway. Your life meant shit from the start. It was as if you had given up on the war and decided to charge the tanks with your bare fists. Nothing brave in it, you just don't give a shit anymore. It was easy to be big and bad when you hated your life and felt meaningless."
"But while we wait- we attempt to shut down from this environment- we all turn off in some way. But as we put so much faith, conviction, dedication into this hope for turning off, it keeps us pushing forward and we don't even question it."
"It's good to be liked and admired and even revered, but it's safer to be feared."
Not that I think Robin is feared, but the idea that it's safest to be not connected to anyone, to insight negative emotion instead of positive... it's very him. I will probably update on this post more when I get the chance.
Sadly, strangely even there have been many passages in The Psychology of Incarceration: A Distortion of the State of Belonging that have reminded me of Robin. I get it now that I've been in the class for a while. We each create or can be in situations that resemble the conditions of incarceration, which in turn will distort these traits that are necessary for us to be emotionally/mentally good. In that case, it's easy to tell why there's so much of this book that I can relate to him. Of all my characters, he best represents someone who's incarcerated or caged. Self created incarceration, but that hardly means it's immune to these distortions.
ANYWAY. I'm mostly doing this for my own frame of reference, because I don't want to write OMG ROBIN in this book. All the time.
"It was always easy to get into fights if you hated yourself. So what if you fought a guy bigger than you who could kick your ass? So what if you got stabbed with 007 in the back and never walked again? So what if someone broke your nose in a fight? You were ugly anyway. Your life meant shit from the start. It was as if you had given up on the war and decided to charge the tanks with your bare fists. Nothing brave in it, you just don't give a shit anymore. It was easy to be big and bad when you hated your life and felt meaningless."
"But while we wait- we attempt to shut down from this environment- we all turn off in some way. But as we put so much faith, conviction, dedication into this hope for turning off, it keeps us pushing forward and we don't even question it."
"It's good to be liked and admired and even revered, but it's safer to be feared."
Not that I think Robin is feared, but the idea that it's safest to be not connected to anyone, to insight negative emotion instead of positive... it's very him. I will probably update on this post more when I get the chance.